U know, guys, ive been thinking the whole night, i hope someone can really shed some lights on me...Yesterevening i have invited this fren of mine to join us for cell fellowship (alrite, i didnt actually 'invite' her since i nv told her it is a CG, coz i figured she wont understand wat a CG is anyway, so i didnt bother to mention)..she's from MMU Malacca campus, i know her when i studied there for two years..to keep things short, i havent been seeing her since my return and we have seldom contacted each other..

Anyway, she told me she had expected it'd b a Christian thingy and i guess that justified my untruthfulness..Throughout the entire time of fellowship, ive caught her shotting me wondering glances here and then, and by the end of it, while we were leaving, she has brought me aside and uttered this stunning remark: Marcus, im SO surprised, WHAT are you doing here with this group of people, i jz CANT believe it...

I was like: what?..only then that i found out that the fact im joining a chinese fellowship astounded her, she had insisted that i dun belong to a chinese church, and it is jz weird to see me in the midst of it..It struck me on my mind that instant, i mean, from an outsider's point of view, a non-Christian chinese speaking gal whom i havent met for ages, she came along for the first time and this is all she has to say? she hasnt even followed me to an eng church b4...

I had this weird feeling and somehow had to agree with wat she said, do i feel belong? am i happy? can i click with others? can i feel the spirit? what made her says what she said? did she sense some tensity between me and others?To make things worse, jz last week mom was asking me bout my church life, and then there came this WHY question that i dreaded...'why do u join a chi church? why dun u go back to eng service?', that was her questions..to tell u the truth i was speechless at that juncture, and i CUDNT give her a solid answer...All i can tell 'em is, it wont b long...



...Marc.