There wont b much new year, will there?

Here's a tribute to the tsunami casualties, may they lie in peace...

The NEWS is out, there wont be no celebration this New Year but instead we are encouraged to pray and mourn for the victims...

What a tragedy, aye? Life's short, who knows what might befall any of us tmr...it has always been my principle that we live our everyday life to the fullest,i.e. enjoy while it last...

Denise jz called to inform that there shall be no more party at Sunway tmr...hmm, i wasnt very disappointed when i heard it, who cares bout celebration when there are so many who wont b able to make it to count down to 2005?

But on the other hand, i guess i'll be at one of the bars to drink my way to 2005, and hymn some requiems to the dead...

It jz somehow occurred to me, some1 might have jz spent years getting themselves a degree, a PHD or whatever qualifications, got a prestigious job, and have a nice family...and one helluva tidal waves would jz washed all their dreams away...is that fair?

Through this catastrophe, i would say it made me value my life more...D*** the CGPA, D*** the academics, the mansion, the pretty cars...it's all worthless...We are all fragile creature, and there aint nothing we can do about to save ourselves...except through God...

With that said, let's jz not be too focus in being the man we always wanted to be, but let nature takes it course...who knows, we might be better off that way...

A morning fellowship with the dean...

This morning i was startled from my comfy bed by the alarm...i sat there, thinking how pathetic it was to wake up early in the morning when i dun even have a morning lesson to attend to...So i went back to sleep...:)

Another 15 minutes have gone by when i finally realized i really have to pull myself together and get my ass up, coz i have an appointment with the Dean...

To be honest, i wasnt afraid of meeting that dude, knowing that he was gonna give me a piece of his mind, but who cares? He is old and he hasnt got much time left, just let him say whatever pleases him...

The appointment was scheduled at 9, and i got there at 930...No, it wasnt intentional that i was late, but due to unforeseen circumstances...(I had to walk to the campus, since my car key IS locked inside my car...but that's another story altogether...)..

So the first impression he gave me was: you're late AGAIN....(i missed my presentation on the 1st day, arrived late at the lab the 2nd day, and then today...the AGAIN was very appropriate indeed..)

I justified to him my reason (even thought i knew of the issue the day b4), he asked me cant i jz walk to skewl? (he didnt know i stay in block C, which is kinda far..) I said i did...then the discussion went on that Cyberian shouldnt drive to school and all that crap, seeing that we have a shortage of parking bays in the campus...i suggested students car-pooling to school and that he should impose a rule that people from hostel shouldnt drive....

He argued that we as students should be considerate...and it went on and on....He proceeded asking me why i havent turned up for the presentation, i said i wasnt aware of it....he reprimanded me a lil', then we talked about my academic achievement...He wanted me to work on my CGPA this term so as to get a better honours, since my points are kinda at the border...i said i would work on it...and then we discussed bout my internship, and my future prospect...

All in all, he was doing a great job advising me academically and what i should do to improve and to further my education...i really appreciate him taking his time and be concern of my studies, i guess i would really have to work on my project properly...anyway, it is the final term....

On another note, i was attending few sessions of the world debate earlier, and i must say they are REALLY good, well, they've gotta, it is a world class competition afterall...the people are gorgeous, and their attires vary...from surfing shorts(the australian) to casual cool T-shirts (the american), gosh, they are so kewl...

What beats me is that they are actually having the debate here in my campus, such a run down place with poor facilities, i would say it is a disgrace...but i suppose it would be an eye opener to them of how third world country is like...:)

It's about time for the second session to commence...i cant wait to see the lovely people again...cya..

Movie reviews...

I have managed to catch two movies last week despite celebration going on...The first one was Kung Fu Hustle...

Alrite, im suspecting some of you are Hoo-Haaing me for going after this film after my endless attempts of portraying Stephen Chow as 'CHEAP' and low class and brainless and whatshit...the truth is, my friends have, i wouldnt say FORCE, but rather, 'invited' me to join 'em for this loathsome film...I was vacant that day, and i thought let's give dat dude a chance...Boy, was i wrong on giving him a chance...

If i cud turn back time, i would definitely follow my instinct and boycott SC's film altogether...Gosh, it was a superbly LOUSY film with no story line AT ALL....jokes and funny antics that have gone over the line and seen many times from his previous films apart, SC has lost his charm of throwing the laughter bomb...The special effect aint impressive too, too childish, i would say...

To make up for my mistake for mistakenly allowing myself to spend couple of hours watching SC doing monkey gesture, i have ever since tell EVERYONE i know NOT TO watch this freakingly E-rated film to save 'em the 10 bucks and to let SC earn less of the same equivalent...C'mon, fellow malaysian, let's boycott him!!
But deep inside me, i know my act would have been futile, believe or not, this film would turn up the 1st place in Malaysia's Box Office...they really adore this guy...typically Malaysian...and singaporean, taiwanese, honkee for the like...

Feeling rather upset for watching a stupid and lousy film, i was adamant in catching another movie to make up for my lost time...and yeah, i saw Phantom of the Opera, which was the exact contrary of KFH, an A-rated film indeed...

I would even start comparing POTO with KFH for fear of contaminating the former, coz it is simply incomparable...This world class musical has once again shown itself in the lime light, thanks to ALW...The songs ARE mesmerizing, even when they sing their dialogues...The leading actress is charming, pretty, and sings like an angel...

On the other hand though, i must say the voice of the phantom wasnt as good, he didnt exactly croak...but...there was jz something in his voice that tells me it aint flawless...alrite, he didnt sing well...end of story...

Overall, the 2.5 hours was well spent, listening again to my favourite renditions and seeing nice outfits and gorgeous costumes...it was eye-candy to all...Now if the casts in KFH can dance as good as the ones in POTO, i would certainly give credit to 'em...but...ugh~~

Dun say i havent warned you guys...save up the money for goodness sake...It would be save to assume that Puteri Gunung Ledang is better than KFH, though i havent seen it...but they are of different genre altogether....who cares anyway...

Momentum building up...

With Christmas over in a thrice, the next excitement to look forward to would be none other than New Year...

This year's Christmas has been especially special for us, I know Christmas is a time to spend time with family, but i havent expected all of Mom's side of families were here to celebrate with us...

Uncle Lay kek and Aunt Mary have flown all the way from Seattle for this merry festive season...Christmas eve dinner was fabulous, mom's brothers and sisters celebrated her belated birthday for her at this Chinese restaurant and we had this nine-course dinner which was good enough for me, since i dun usually appreciate chinese food...

After dinner we adjourned to more drinking at home in front of the courtyard (all wines were air-flowned from America)...Uncle's residential is a masterpiece of his own design and creation...The fish pond is especially impressive, with lush of greens surrounding the pond, and the fish proves to be gracious swimmer as well...unlike the pond at my house....sigh...The interior is richly decorated by ancient chinese potteries, arts and furniture...He spent another Sing $10,000 for this handmade carpet, where different shades of shadow and colours are seen at different angle...

It was altogether a nice family reunion with much conversation and reminisce of old times...I told uncle my plan to go to the states and he has shown much enthusiasm...he would expect me to find my own way there though, it's time to be independent apparently...

Yesterday i have missed out my presentation for my internship program, and it seemed i was the only one who wasnt aware of such changes of schedule...Im expecting to face the dean for repercussion of being ignorant tomorrow....but those who know me would figure that i dun give a damn to anyone for any matter...jz let him say what he has in mind, and i will be off in no time...haha...

I must admit it was a mistake on my part for not being more concern of any updates online and have always depended on my friends to remind me....everyone thought i knew bout the changes...but i dun blame them, they have no obligation of baby-sitting me anyway...To look at a different perspective, i would have been better off not presenting yesterday, coz i would have NOTHING to present...i didnt start preparing the slides until yesternight...(the previous night i went clubbing until 3am, and have slept over at friend's place till noon..)..Lessons learned:no clubbing on the night b4 presentation...

After all that alcohol consumption, i wasnt myself yesterday, feeling somewhat lost and empty....and lonely too without companion...Gosh, i really needed someone badly...Dear Lord, i know you are hearing this, pls do something ASAP!! im so drifting away...

Jour numero Un...

What a day...

Dad woke me up early in the morning to get me all prepared for the 'moving'...

Well, seeing he was all pumped up and excited, i didnt have the heart to tell him that i havent actually secured a place (a room) in cyberia, and he has already arranged the lorry to shift my stuff....hmm....

The truth is, i only started looking for a room last week, and today's school reopen...to talk 'bout the art of procrastination...

So in the end, i hafta leave my stuff (a wardrobe, a computer desk, a cabinet, and a mattress...)at my friend's place...im really grateful of them helping me to carry all the stuff up....(Cheers to Daryl, Kew, Ejia, and Khairul...)

I spent my entire afternoon walking from one block to the other (condominium), desperately keeping a look-out on any pieces of papers attached to the wall which could potentially be people advertising rooms for rent...

There wasnt much luck, but im thankful that the weather has been pleasant, i wouldnt fancy walking under the scorching sun and get all sweltered...Apparently people are more interested if i were to rent a whole unit....give me a break...

At one juncture i approached this agent who acted like a bitch and wouldnt be helpful at all....she offered me this place at the town house but refused to show me the place...said she wont bother renting it to me if i were to bother making her walk all the way there....Wat an A**...

So, at Hobson's choice, i went back to this lady (i got her number from roommart dot come...) who offered me a single room at 350....exclusive of bills...the 'best' part is, as she claimed....is that i get to be her son's companion....urg~

That dude is obviously a mother's child...first year student...one look at im i know he wont give me much trouble...in other words, he's the nerdy kinda guy....well, nvm, i will only be his room mate for four months....and then im OFF...yeahhhh.....

Today's lesson has been boring as expected....gosh....im so not ready to go back to studying again....to look at the brightside....It's CHRISTMAS......let the celebration begins....!!

C'est Fini...

This is it, after three months and 10 days of being a captive, now im finally free!! Only to b bounded by the campus compound again....sigh, nothing to b delightful afterall....

Everyone has greeted me, cheered upon me, told me i did a great job (such lies..), and gave me lotsa advice...On this last day, im gonna put some finishing touch on my report before handing it to the manager and HR, submit some forms to the supervisor, handover some administration tasks back to the original administrators, briefed 'em bout the exercise that is going on in which im currently the project manager, get the appraisal from the manager and then im off...

Wow, im sorta having mixed feelings now...i know im dying to leave and get some rest, but at the same time, i know i would miss these ppl alot...Gosh, parting is definitely hard to cope with, you get acquainted to ppl, u get along with 'em, u have fun, and then rather abruptly, u're waving goodbye to 'em...harsh reality..

I s'pose we're gonna hafta deal alot with parting as years go by, whether we like it or not...the key is to learn how to LET GO, and MOVE ON...nothing is eternal, except for our relationship with God, things come and go, sometimes they leave traces behind, other times it jz vanish and be forgotten forever...

Our lifetime in this world is short, and only temporary...we make both good and bad decisions in our life, but they both give us experiences which will help us grow...How sad it is knowing something is a bad decision and still go on doing it...you havent learned, and your life will remain the same...stagnant...

One day when im old, i dun wanna look back and regret not doing the things that i wanna do during my lifetime...dat's why im quite adamant in pursuing that dream of mine, and will never give up until i achieve something...Failure wont haunt you forever, it is that decision you make that will...

Go on, ppl, live your life the way u always wanted, u nv know what will happen tomorrow...

(Do i sound serious or wat? Dun worry, im not having any fatal illness or something, not that i know of...)

Some sentiments on my side....

It has become a routine really, that every morning when i arrived at office, the first thing i would do is (neglect the wearing-the-sweater and make-myself-a-cuppa part..) to write the blog of the day before...

Thinking back, i wasnt such a diarist... Yes, every New Year, mom would unfailingly produce before me a brand new leathered, gold-framed, A4-sized diary to encourage me to jot down my everyday life and thoughts...

I would, as i can recall, get all excited over the diary, pampered it with ornaments like stickers and the like, pinned down my mighty name on the personal profiles, and would take a whole lotta effort in printing down my friends' names, address, tel. no., DOB, interests and whatnot...

All this would take place over a period of a fortnight or so, whereby during this time, i would industriously write down something everynight, irregardless of how sleepy i was...

Im sorry to say that this whole affair is short-lived...after that 'golden period', as if suddenly caught up with life again, and be incapacitated by the work hustle (actually i have copious time..)...the poor diary would stay untouched on the shelf, singing:

So the days went by
I stayed the same
But he began to drift away
I was left alone
Still i waited for the day
When he'd say "i will always love you"

Lonely and forgotten
Never thought he'd look my way
he smiled at me and held me just like he use to do
Like he loved me
When he loved me

When somebody loved me
Everything was beautiful
Every hour spent together
Lives wintin my heart
When he loved me.
(Lyrics inpired By When She Loved Me, Toy Story 2)


Now that i have found this blog, the whole new writing experience begins once again, somewhat unprecedented, since ive been continue writing after three months...i guess this should be something to cheer upon...

I dunno if i will blog everyday once school starts again, but im gonna make an effort to record some special events in the very least, or something that i wanna say to others but dun have the courage to (im a meek person..), or something stupid that i do out of my quirkiness, or to express my crankiness in harsh words...

yeah, im definitely not gonna stop blogging...

New Year Resolution...?

In half-a-month's time, there shall be much excitement going on, what with the festive season and New Year, im expecting everyone to go wild, oh, at least jz for this time of the year....

I havent been partying alot lately, it seemed as though i have gone all lackadaisical over the clubbing crave...Jz yesterday i was invited to ThaiClub for that burfday bash where a gal fren of mine would turn 23 overnight...No, i didnt go, ive felt weary and my eyes hurt a lil' (must be dat cons...)..

Also, it didnt seem appropriate for a Christian to go clubbing, swinging your head, drinking, making yourself looking all unkempt and smelling rancid...it jz seem wrong...

With Christmas and New Year approaching, frens have been asking me to join 'em for count-downs at the club, i didnt say yes, as yet...but most probably i'll b home-bound with my parents on Holy Night...Family comes first, k?

Yesterday at the farewell luncheon, i was bombarded with a million and one questions, of whether i have learned anything throughout the whole course of interning here, if i like the jobs im doing, will i come back, have i sent in the application letter, what am i gonna do after i grad, what's my plan, what do i like to do...and so on and so forth...

I really appreciate 'em being concerned of my future prospect, but really, im letting things come their way, naturally...I must admit that im a so-called 'ad hoc' kinda person, i dun make plans, i like stuff being done impromptu....that's always been my way, im not sure if it will hurt me in the long run, but right now im feelin' comfortable, and that's what that matters...

No matter what that comes along, i know i will treat myself to a nice vacation, i know i do deserve it after all these years of hardwork (i guess..)..I wanna runaway from this place, and breathe some fresh air, on the mountain top...(inspired by The Sound of Music, LOL..)..


'What would i give, to live where you are,
What would i pay, to stay here beside you,
What would i do, to see you smiling at me....

There we will walk,
There we will run,
If we could stay all day in the sun,
Just you and me,
And i could be, Part of Your World...'

(adapted from TLM: Part of your world...)

A Musical and IMAX experience...

As ive mentioned b4, i attended this musical 'Drunk Before Dawn' as put up by SIB (Sidang Injil Borneo) in collaboration with ISO (Isaac Symphony Orchestra), and i must tell you guys, heads bowed to the producer, it was a breathtaking experience...

Rey (clarinetist) and Ed (cellist) have had the opportunity to play in the orchestra (they are both my Uni frens..)...Gosh, they really played WELL (they didnt buy me to write this..), i dunno if i was too immersed in the musical or wat, dat when she told me she squeaked, i was like: you did?

All in all, the musical was a HUGE success, the production was Awesome, Splendid, kewl, and whatever descriptions u can think of...I was having the dilemma of whether focusing to the orchestra or to the cast, but really, the cast DID SWELL too....their vocals, it was almost FLAWLESS...i like particularly Lea's, her mother's, and her sister, Mina's...

There was this really funny scene too, after the intermission, the cast brought out this really typical Chinese act...and they acted exactly like it...fantastic..I cant believe it when Rey told me the cast are all SIB members, to think of so many talented actors/actresses under one Church...God's grace is Undeniable...Amen?

One note on the orchestra, these ppl (some of 'em non SIB members) got together to produce an eminent masterpiece...The score was magnificent, i wouldnt say it'd be as good as John William's, but it is definitely a world class production...I enjoyed listening to the 1st violin, the oboe and the keyboard alot...not to mention of coz, clarinet and cello (my sincere tribute to rey&Ed)...And as for the lyrics of the musical, it does move me alot, i would be surprised if someone wasnt...

I will not relate the story of the musical, but i can tell you it is Genuine, and it's about God's love and work...He will nv forsake us...didnt He create us in the 1st place? And if you think you came from Monkey (the theory of human evolution), u can continue to think that way, i aint no monkey, im a child of God...

I was a lil' taken aback knowing that the musical will only run for three days, gosh, so many ppl could have have the chance of knowing the gospel through this superb musical...but i heard they are gonna bring the production over to other places....good for them!

On an unrelated occasion, i went to Imax theatre yesterday to watch Polar Express...Though this wasnt my 1st Imax experience, i enjoyed the show alot, PE was made solely to bringout the 3D effect...and i would definitely pay more to watch any movies on Imax screen, coz it is entirely a whole new experience, or if i should say, WAY better than conventional 2D screen...

I have three more days interning, and im currently struggling to put my reports together...(thanks to my procrastinating nature..)...Later my manager is gonna bring her entire team out for luncheon, apparently is for ME....i cant tell u how flattered i am of such gesture...why, im merely a trainee here, and they're having a farewell for me? I really Luv this ppl...

Less than two weeks to Christmas....May the Christmas Spirit be in all of us.... :)

Ocean's 12...

After Ocean's 11, you will find that its sequel aint nothing to Goo-Gaa about...Let's jz say it is a pow wow of huge Movie stars, big time....boasting Major names like Catherine Zeta Jones (i LUV her..), Julia Robert, George Clooney, Brad Pitt, Matt Damon...and some not-so-major names like i-dunno-who....

So, this eleven-of-them, shown previously having stolen some Big Head's money, they are now made to pay back the money in two weeks, along with interest, or they'll be dead duck...And so everything repeats itself, all the planning and stealing and showing cool gadgets (not so kewl afterall...)..

What's worth noting is that we get to see CZJ and her charming ways...much less of JR this time...that's no wonder why they have been fighting so much...even petite issue like who's name comes first in posters and trailers and whatshit...JR has got some serious attitude in which she should consider changing...didnt she jz join the motherhood after giving birth to a pair of twins?

Later in the evening i shall be attending a musical in which Rey will be playing the clarinet alongside other Winds in the orchestra...im looking forward to a good time there...

My friends have asked me to go clubbing tonight, but i guess i shall pass, since im having a full day tomorrow, shopping for gifts, going for rehearsal in church, and tmr night we are having a special event in church whereby this HK actress will be among us to share her testimony...

Gosh, time is flying by so quickly, under my very nose too...i wish i can continue to stay as mesmerized by the wonders of this world as possible, dun wanna get too caught up with life...

Merry Christmas, everyone....May the blessings continue to rain down in abundance to all of us...and Let the Shepherd guide us through...aint we the sheep dat's always got lost? Well, i know i am one...

A different dining experience...

Yesterday i had to cancel my evening hangouts with the guys, reason being ive had a tiring afternoon after all that walking in the mall...

I got back home and Uncle Rob brought me out for dinner...It happened that this flyer/leaflet (i can nv tell the diff..) caught my attention being stuck in the middle of the gate...

Out of curiosity, i checked out the content (it rarely happens, as i nv paid any attention to this kinda advertisement)...So this piece of paper features this brazillian restaurant across the street where im staying...and i thought: why dun we give it a try? it would save me the hassle of thinking where to dine and all that fuss...

As a matter of fact, i was tempted to 'try out' this new restaurant was due to the fact that i had always wanted to savour brazillian cuisine, after watching Anthony Bourdain on 'A Cook's Tour'. In that particular episode, celebrity chef AB has gone to Rio De Janeiro to attempt the exotic food, and he had liked it immensely (or so it seemed, we can nv know for sure)...

I was never one who would go around venturing into new restaurant unless recommended by friends or trusted food reviews from magazines...so this time i was taking my risk...as it is, this brazillian restaurant by the name of Carnaval Churrascaria is one of the few (2 to 3) brazillian restaurants in town. And we found out later that Churrascaria means Brazillian Barbeque, portuguese style....(what do these two nations have in common?)...

Upon seated, we were told that they dun serve A La Carte...i was quite dismayed as i wasnt in the mood of having buffet, i wasnt even HUNGRY...But Uncle seemed interested in the spread, so we stayed in the end...

The Garcons at the restaurant dun converse well in English, so dun attempt to ask any tough questions...By tough, i meant, do u serve Ostrich meat, deer meat, etc...(Uncle asked, not me..).

The catch is that while you have to self-serve at the vege bar, the chef (brazillian) will bring you the grilled meat, skillfully sliced it before you using this sharp knife (uncle was quite concerned that he wont accidentally cut us with that sharp blade)...they have a total of 12 diff cuts of meat, which include beef, lamb, chicken, fish, turkey...and some 18 varieties of local and western vegetables like pasta, salad, maize, glass noodles, beans, potatoes...to name jz a few...cooked the brazillian way, of coz...

To be honest, i only like one quarter of the dozen meat offered, and i must justify that meat like Beef Liver, brissomething, chicken heart, and other internal organs are not in my consumption list....they tasted gross, if u must know...On the other hand, i love the beef, upper part, sirloin, and ribs, turkey, and the lamb shank...

The vege bar was fine, or ordinary...Hmm, not my kinda taste...It was claimed that the food there is healthier than normal cooking...apparently the chef has marinated the meat with his very own 'Copacabana' marinade....well whatever...

I would give a rating of 4 out of 10, in other words, this would be my 1st and the last time in this restaurant...It was kinda pricey too, 45+ per person, excluding my cappucino and Uncle's Earl Grey...

No Offence, chef, you have tried, but we dun share the same taste buds, keep it up nevertheless....:)

Helluva day...(in a good way...)

As i was saying, i went out with Niv earlier, for a wholesome three hours...Kewl, aint it? I didnt hafta tell NOONE where i was going, how long will i b gone and why i was going out...Alrite, u might b telling me dat only means im a Nobody in the office...well, i nv said i am in the 1st place...:)

Talking of Nobody, i heard this from Somebody...'Nobody is Perfect, Im a Nobody, that means Im perfect...'hehe, now i gotcha...

Coming back, we spent some time looking for her winter caps, gloves, pullover, scarf/shawl, boots, watever...In the end, guess wat, i got myself something as well...haha...

So she was looking at her boots, and since i was with her, i thought i should try some as well, got this really nice looking boots, n thought i shd get it, since boots are in my Christmas List...So she said we should adjourn to other shops b4 making our decisions, i thought it was a smart move, as ive always ended buying something n find something else nicer in other shops...

It so happened we went browsing at Studio, she looked for her cap, while i checked out some Nike Shoes, and this particular one caught my attention, it has the word 'air' near the heels, and i thought it was pretty attractive...Asked Niv bout it, she went:That shoe is Gorgeous...better than the boots i saw earlier...

Everything turned out fine, i got my shoes, she got her boots, and only BOOTS, among others...she said she will b back to get the TopShop Hat, i'll give her my discount coupon, since she has been such a darling to me...

Upon coming back, i stumbled upon this 10 dollars note, they say Finders Keepers, Losers Weepers, rite? Haha....what a pleasant day indeed...:)

Ppl tell me that im desperate, they have NO idea...

This entire morning ive been having this song in mind...It has been long enough since i last had a serious relationship with anyone, Too long, in fact...

I dunno, it's not like i havent been scouring for that special someone, it's jz dat she hasnt appeared, and ive had far too much disappointment...to be honest, this whole thing is getting me a lil' jaded...

Lately, a close friend has commented that im too choosy and it's time to let go of this trait of mine...Oh, Puh-----leese...give me a break here, what's so superior in me that allows me the privilege to actually Choose someone? I know deep inside that i havent the look, not filthy rich, and not as charming as those pretty boys out there...Im jz an average Joe for crying out loud...

But that doesnt mean ive gotta accept anyone that comes along the way, does it? A relationship goes both way, and if there aint no spark, there wont b a burning fire, i wont even start the passionate part, where fire is concerned...

It's getting a lil' tough and somewhat awkward to hang around with my friends nowadays, everyone is hooked up with one another, and it's jz sad when u havent someone to cling on to...

There was this time when i went to a movie with two couples (they're all my best pals..), and i had to seat in the middle with them sandwiching me on both sides, now if that doesnt sound pathetic, what does? And jz to make me happy (out of sympathy), the boys would hangout with me while the gals went for shopping...

Of coz, there are still the bachelors around that'd ask me out for a drink or two at the bar and 'fish' out the eligible chicks...the truth is, if she's kewl enough to be a gf, wont she b taken already? Or she's like me, putting the 'on the prowl' status, that would suit me... :)

Allow me to digress...

So yesterday ive gone to TopMan for that 4h member sales...I got myself a shirt and a wallet, after the 20% discount, it came at 158.XX...so i asked the salesgal if i would be entitled to get two darts (they were having this dart game where you'd get to throw a dart for every 80 bucks u spent...).

She was like:Im so sorry Sir, you need to spend 160 to get 2 darts, why dun u pick out another merchandise to add on? It didnt piss me that ive gotta spend at least a couple of dollars more, but i was devastated that im not CHARMING (again) enough to make her forget bout the 2 bucks and give me one extra Freakin' Dart...

Feeling somewhat annoyed, i picked another singlet at 69, have 'em paid, got the STUPID darts, threw 'em, one dropped, another missed the Bull's eye, got the STUPID beg (ive got two already from previous throw..), and left...telling myself i aint gonna b bothered with EXTRA darts ANYMORE in the future...i dun even need the travelling beg for goodness sake...Jz becoz of dignity ive paid more...nvm, no next time...promise...

After that ive departed for Prayer Meeting as i was the backup singer, it was a nice fellowship and some pondering thoughts instilled by Pastor made me grow stronger, somehow...

Alrite, i guess i'll stop here for now, Niv is pestering me to bring her to Pyramid to get her winter cap and boots, she'll b leaving to London in 2W...u will b hearing more from me...

Can't Take My Eyes Off You...

You're just too good to be true.
Can't take my eyes off you.
You'd be like Heaven to touch.
I wanna hold you so much.
At long last love has arrived
And I thank God I'm alive.
You're just too good to be true.
Can't take my eyes off you.

Pardon the way that I stare.
There's nothing else to compare.
The sight of you leaves me weak.
There are no words left to speak,
But if you feel like I feel,
Please let me know that it's real.
You're just too good to be true.
Can't take my eyes off you.

I love you, baby,
And if it's quite alright,
I need you, baby,
To warm a lonely night.
I love you, baby.
Trust in me when I say:
Oh, pretty baby,
Don't bring me down, I pray.
Oh, pretty baby, now that I found you, stay
And let me love you, baby.
Let me love you.

You're just too good to be true.
Can't take my eyes off you.
You'd be like Heaven to touch.
I wanna hold you so much.
At long last love has arrived
And I thank God I'm alive.
You're just too good to be true.
Can't take my eyes off you.

I love you, baby,
And if it's quite alright,
I need you, baby,
To warm a lonely night.
I love you, baby.
Trust in me when I say:
Oh, pretty baby,
Don't bring me down, I pray.
Oh, pretty baby, now that I found you, stay..


Frankie Valli

Of the ordinary...

Yesterday i hooked up with R for dinner, we went to our, or rather, MY regular diner at Centre Point to savour my kinda food...Well, she has refused to suggest any eateries, so it was up to me to decide...and i was Hungry, so it didnt take long to think of a place which offers NICE FOOD....

Pizza Uno can be found in four distinct locations in Klang Valley...Apart from the one at Centre Point, they have franchise at Ampang Point, USJ and Times Square...i still prefer the food here in CP as the chef is an authentic Italian...The only problem is, it is ALWAYS packed...

For Antipasto (Italian equivalent of entree), we ordered this Spinachi al Forno...It was a RICH dish topped with cheese and baked on top of chewy spinach...In fact, the Richness of the food served here is one of the reasons i have come back here regularly for that dairy crave...

For Soup, we have this favourite of Wild Mushroom soup, another richy soup, thick enough for my liking...then i have myself this Garlic Prawn Fettucine, a garlicky sauce based, blend with ALOT of extra virgin Olive Oil, and six (or seven) succulent Large prawns...I like the sauce especially, after all the White sauce ive been indulging in, this is a change...and have i told you i fancy Garlic?

For reasons i dunno why, R has gotten herself this Oven Baked Chicken (fancy coming to an Italian Restaurant for Chicken..)...It came with HALF a chicken, and u guessed it alrite, i had to eat Half of her Half-a-Chicken...along with all the potatoes around it...too fattening apparently...(gals...).

I didnt like the Chicken, it was kinda bland, not as tasty as the Wood-Fire chicken dat KR has to offer...We moved on to Tiramisu next, though she wanted Bread-n-Butter Pudding as well, she had to drop it when i assured her there aint any room left in my guts...

Tira-Mi-Su, Pick-Me-Up, literally, has been my Favourite cake FOREVER...Mom introduced it to me when i was a lil' kid and i found a liking to it immediately...She has attempted to bake it once but dismissed it ever since, there was too much work involved...the baking, the chilling...It is actually cheese cake, Mascarpone Cheese to be exact, topped with coffee powder, and served in a cup...

Among the ones i like best are: Italian Tomato, Dome, Starz, Lemon Garden, Melting Pot, Dave's, Piccolo Mondo...


All in all, i was in a state of contentment after such hearty meal..we had a stroll around CP and then headed back...Upon watching Alias, i retired to bed, along with all that Cheese and Milk and Meat...Gosh, i really should start working out soon, i dun anticipate a potato figure, not Now, not During Mid-age, and certainly not After Mid-age, for that matter...

Have yourself a Merry lil' Christmas...

Have yourself a merry little Christmas
Let your heart be light
From now on your troubles will be out of sight, yeah

Have yourself a merry little Christmas
Make the Yuletide gay
From now on your troubles will be miles away, oh ooh

Here we are as in olden days
Happy golden days of yore, ah
Faithful friends who are dear to us
Gather near to us, once more, ooh

Through the years we all will be together
If the fates allow
Hang a shining star upon the highest bow, ohh
And have yourself a merry little Christmas now



Faithful friends who are dear to us
Gather near to us, once more, ohh

Through the years we all will be together
If the fates allow, oh yeah
But 'til then we'll have to muddle through, somehow
Oh yeah, oh ooh oh
And have yourself a merry little Christmas now

O Holy Night....

O holy night, the stars are brightly shining;
It is the night of the dear Savior’s birth!
Long lay the world in sin and error pining,
Till He appeared and the soul felt its worth.
A thrill of hope, the weary soul rejoices,
For yonder breaks a new and glorious morn.

Fall on your knees, O hear the angel voices!
O night divine, O night when Christ was born!
O night, O holy night, O night divine!

Led by the light of faith serenely beaming,
With glowing hearts by His cradle we stand.
So led by light of a star sweetly gleaming,
Here came the wise men from Orient land.
The King of kings lay thus in lowly manger,
In all our trials born to be our friend!

Fall on your knees, O hear the angel voices!
O night divine, O night when Christ was born!
O night, O holy night, O night divine!

Truly He taught us to love one another;
His law is love and His Gospel is peace.
Chains shall He break for the slave is our brother
And in His Name all oppression shall cease.
Sweet hymns of joy in grateful chorus raise we,
Let all within us praise His holy Name!

Fall on your knees, O hear the angel voices!
O night divine, O night when Christ was born!
O night, O holy night, O night divine!

Im impervious to criticism...

It has been a wonderful weekend indeed, despite having to work on a Saturday...I have looked at the bright side and somehow consoled myself that it'll b the last Saturday that i'll ever have to haul ass to work...(i sincerely wish so..).

Mom has gotten me to read this book in which she claimed will build me up in many ways...It is written by Rick Warren entitled 'Purpose Driven Life'..i have started on the first eight chapters and thought it is rather inspiring, really...

It speaks of why we are here in the 1st place, what's the ultimate purpose we are put on this earth, and how are we to live with purpose....et cetera...shall tell u guys more bout it when i finish reading it...

Yesterday i was invited to witness this drama put on by DUMC, with the title 'Forgiven'...We have several hours to kill before the drama commences, so Jo and I went to 1-U (again), hoping to catch a movie...

It was dismaying when there aint any nice films screening...I have looked forward to catching one of these...National Treasure, The Aviator, Ocean's Twelve, Bridget Jones:Edge of Reason and The Phantom of the Opera:The movie ...

Well, i anticipated particularly POTO as ive always adored this musical by Andrew Lloyd Webber, what a masterpiece!...another production of ALW in which i will nv forget is CATS...(coz i saw that with my ex at Istana Budaya, cost me 500...)

She has perferred FAME to CATS, we have argued for a while which was better and i still think CATS, along with its contumes and renditions, boasted some more difficult dance steps...their cat's gesture was impressive too...

There was this Polar Express in which i havent seen though, but ive promised Al to watch it with him in Imax Theatre...The review for the conventional 2D cinema was bad, but ppl are giving the thumbs up for the 3D screen...no harm trying it anyway, but im sure it'll be the same as Imax Sydney...also, be prepared to pay double from the conventional one...

After shopping for her stilettos (browsing from old to new wing) and a satisfying meal at Vietnam Kitchen (Kudos for me in attempting Asian cuisines..), we were weary...so we ventured into MPH for that knowledgeable afternoon...

Our sojourn at the book store wasnt without gain... I checked out some of the other books that Dan Brown has written, felt tempted to buy Angels and Demons but instead, i got the books from Mitch Albom...

i)Tuesdays with Morrie
ii)The Five People You Meet in Heaven

we spent some time reading there too, Jo was hooked up with 'Travel Mercies', a number one best selling Christianity book while i looked at John Grisham's The Last Juror and Arthur Golden's Memoir of a Geisha...(will b back for 'em..)

When it was time to leave, we had problem locating the car (it happens ALL THE TIME...), and we werent sure of the direction to DUMC either...after some bad navigations and to tolerate with few atrocious drivers on the road, we finally got there jz in time for the drama...

The drama was fine, relating the issue of Spouses, relationship between wife and mother-in-law, how things fell apart, how angry words were expressed, how forgiveness were given and accepted...

The Pastor gave some meaningful words that touched many of us, we repented, and we asked for forgiveness and we learned of the art of forgiving others...I dunno, somehow i dun think holding grudges towards someone is a good idea at all, why not jz let it go and live a peaceful life...


'Im Forgiven, because You were Forsaken,
Im Accepted, You were Condemned,
and Im alive and well Your spirit is within me,
because You died and rose again...'

The Forgotten...am i forgotten?

Yesterday i was able to book via online the movie tickets for The Forgotten, starring Julienne Moore...It is somewhat impressive nowadays u get to select your own preference seatings through online booking...I managed to secure what i would consider the best seats of the hall, center viewing...Feeling rather pleased with myself, i was looking forward to using my printed slip in exchange for the tickets, but alas, i didnt get to use my online bookings afterall...

When my friend, R, and i got there (1-U), it was already 7pm, and yes, the tickets i booked was scheduled to screen at 7pm...after looking for a parking bay and parking my car and all that hullabaloo, it was 1915 hours (thanks to our dilly-dallyness...).

Feeling rather subdued,we eventually bought the tickets for 910 screening (after some hesitation, since i have a curfew...OK, it's becoz of Survivor..).

We proceeded for dinner...and the same old dilemma arose...where to eat?

I know, i know...this behaviour is not appropriate and beyond tolerance, some quarter of the entire world population (jz my reckon, i have no idea of the real statistic..) are starving and you actually spent time thinking Where and What to eat? how pathetic is dat?

Feeling somewhat ashamed, i made a fast decision this time, since the other day we passed on the idea of having Thai food, i suggested savouring Thai Cuisine...R said Barn Thai offers some really nice food, so we headed there...

Now dun b all judgmental...When we got there, i was having 2nd thought...I dunno, i jz dun feel like eating it, i cant figure out what's in me dat makes me loath Asian food so much...i dun usually have a disfavour for Thai food, but it jz wasnt the right time, my tastebud wasnt responding to it...

R got somewhat tired of me, having walk all the way to Barn Thai to find me hesitating going in...She pulled me away and i was led to Dave's (from the pioneer of Dave Deli), gosh, she always knows what i like best...

We ordered Mix Grill and Fettucine with Italian beef strips (in white sauce) and Cookies-n-Cream Milkshakes...

The Mix Grill came at gigantic portion which consists of Tiger Prawns, beef, mutton, calamari, potato wedges and vege...oh, and yellowed rice too...The taste aint perfect and the rice was a lil' redundant..the seafood was fine though...

I adore the pasta more, it was creamy and the beef strips were smokey and well-seasoned...the fettucine was cooked to perfection too, not too soft but chewy, the way i like it...

When we were done, we asked for the dessert menu, it was the same old ones and ive tried them a thousand times (exag), so i voted to have desserts elsewhere...Nevertheless, i strongly recommend their Tiramisu, it is soft and frozy, with strawberry sauce to taste, the coffee powder blends in well with the Mascarpone too...simply delicious...

We dropped the list, paid the bill and adjourned to Haagen Daaz (R's splendid suggestion)...it was a bitter disappointment when i found that Bailey Flavour aint available..:(
Instead, we have Coffee, Dulce de Leche, one scoop each, and two scoops of Rum and Raisin, my all time favourite...I was gonna use my Top Priority Card (Concorde) to entitle for a 20% discount but find that it jz expired...Sigh...

So, about this movie, it is of Psycho-fiction cum thriller kinda Genre, and i must say i found a liking to it...This woman (JM) has jz lost a son and soon discover that everything about her son is erased and Forgotten, together with another parent whose daughter faces the same fate, they went in search for the traces of their lost children only to find that they are dealing with an outer source, far beyond their imagination...

There were few parts where i jumped (literally) from my seat, it was an exciting film that will keep you spellbounded throughout, i promise...jz yestermorning i was reading the review of the movie which was rated badly...i realize everyone has their own five cents worth and you simply hafta watch it yourself to give your own ratings...

Never miss out a nice film jz becoz the review is bad...you nv know...

It'll b over in a thrice...

It's vendredi again, je suis tres content...:)

ive been spending some/entire morning reading comments from fellow TAR fans...It's lunch time now, but i have no appetite, it would be the 4th day in a row that i havent taken lunch then...

Come to think of it, ive actually spent a quarter-of-a-year in Maxis, and that's a long time to me...Time does fly, dun u think? It's all coming to an end sooner than i've thought it'd be, and there is this tingling within me that said i dreaded leaving, but i was telling myself i cant wait to get outta here...contradicting feelings...ironic, aye?

I wont say i didnt learn anything here, as even dealing with other personnels is part of learning...this has been my first job/internship ever, and ive known to take commands from superior and how to take charge when needed...I would say my three months here have been relaxing more than stressing, coz i have been doing errands at my own sweet pace, within my comfort zone, that is...despite given deadlines and all...On few occasions the manager didnt seem at all please with my delays in submitting the task, and ive put it in mind that this is one area im gonna hafta work upon....there is always room for improvement, i gathered...

As for the rest of the co-workers, they have been awesome, my supervisor (the 2nd one) is a funny chap and easy-going fella...we have even played a prank on this new trainee gal by spying on her work on a distant computer and messed around with her typings...we had a good laugh too...

The manager is a serious looking dude with a frowny face, he always have this poor attempt of putting on a smile whenever he sees me, coz i still think he looks constipated (from constipation, LOL)...it must be his thick eye brow...anyway, i have no grudge on him but aint too happy with the way he wants everything to be detailed and perfect....well i guess that's the reason he is a Manager while im jz a Trainee....

On the contrary, the Asst. Manager is a pleasant looking lady, she would approvingly accept and sign on any documents that i produced before her, unlike the manager...that's why i always wait for the moment when the Manager aint around to get to her for approval...Also, she always asks me how im doing and whether i have eaten and whether ive gotten my coupons and when i do happen to stay back slightly later than 530, she would sound concern and asked why im still around...(i hope she doesnt dread seeing me...)..

That's about it, my supervisor has told me that i'll always be welcome back here, coz Maxis has a tendency of recruiting its trainee, save up their time training newbies apparently...i dunno if i'll come back, we'll hafta see bout dat...right now i still owe the company a written report regarding what ive learned here, i guess i'll see to that next week...procrastination has always been part of me...a large part, in fact....*grin*

Lord's will....

It happened that my former supervisor is back from her maternity leave, all shining in complexion, and back in shape too...haha...I sense some stress within her too, attempting to accept the challenge of motherhood...I wish to tell her that she has NO IDEA what pain and grief is awaiting her when her baby springs from toddler to young adult....since i know that im being a PITA to my mom...poor mom...

She was rather surprised im still around, and seemed delighted seeing me..(pls bear with my 'perasan'..)..she asked me if my current supervisor is treating me well and if i can cope with everything that im taught of, i answered primly that ive got everything under control and that she shouldnt worry too much....well, maybe she should, since im still having trouble understanding some of the scripts and binaries that were installed into the server, but that's another issue altogether...

So it is officially Christmas month, and ive yet to embark on a shopping spree expedition, i guess it's an achievement on my part, spending less money as part of my last year's resolutions...I figured saving up some money for future travelling would be more worthwhile than buying unnecessary stuff...Some form of maturity is taking place without me knowing it...Another achievement...:)

I have been talking to this sister from church, confessing to her that i no longer hear what Lord has to say to me...im jz losing grip, if u ask me...She has advised me to quiet down my heart, my life, my activities...put all worries and dilemmas away, and focus on God...that's the art of listening apparently, and im still trying...

Lately i have been urging Lord to take control of my life coz i felt that im on the verge of slipping backward, the inclination is increasing and im losing my foothold...it seemed ive been condescending to do things that i felt Lord wont b pleased of, but i did it anyway...The truth is, He's always been there and i somewhat took Him for granted, knowing that He will be there fixing and cleaning up my mess...

I know that i shd leave my destiny in His hand, and shdnt jz follow my heart's desire....What He wants in for my best interest, i have nv doubted it, ever...

Luck does matter, doesnt it?

Been having a rather peaceful night after the hangouts and movies the other nights...I decided to stay in yesternight simply because:

i) It was raining (and i prefer being IN than OUT on rainy nights)
ii) TAR6 (prime time) was on satellite
iii) I wanted to finish up the last few chapters of Beach House
iv) TAR3 (repeat) was on terrestrial
v) Malcolm in the middle on terrestrial

Yeah, i know, it is kinda sad when u hafta look forward to tv shows, u must b wondering: havent u better things to do?

The answer is NO, the benefits of staying home are beyond measures...i cud save a wholelot by not hanging out...Ive pondered bout this for some time, and calculated the cost...

a simple stroll with frens would easily cost me the green beast (rm50), and im not saying i bought anything...let's see, a meal could easily mean 30 (not paying for anyone), a cuppa at CB or SB comes at 12 ( still not buying anyone any drinks, which is kinda rare.. and no cakes...im estimating minimal cost here)....there u go, i shall exclude the ice-creams and desserts and snacks that come after the meal....taking into consideration petrol, tolls and parking fare...u'll have it..

And that's only a stroll im talking about...putting Shopping aside, Again....normally i would go for movies, or karaoke, or Bowling...that shd exceed my quota of 50...now u see why i voted to stay home?

My plans went on pretty well, i watched all the shows, i finished my book by James Patterson, and proceeded to read on 'To Kill a Mocking Bird' by Harper Lee...

Would love to share some thoughts on TAR6...i was delighted that our (fans from the official site) comments on improvement for TAR5 has been highlighted...i did voice out how unfair it is for one person to complete most of the roadblocks, like Chip, Colin, Brandon (TAR5), and Zach, John Vito (TAR3), Jon (TAR4)....

Yes, the male from the couple teams would be completing most of the roadblocks, which was in the disadvantage of both-female teams...and so, for this season, both team members would hafta complete equal share of roadblocks...now aint dat a good move? we want fair competition here...

Also, they have reduced the number of yields to three....and they imposed penalty to any teams that led other teams into disadvantage, like slowing them down....Don and Mary Jean pay the price for 'hijacking' Adam and rebecca's 4WD...perfect...

So it proceeded that sister team Lena and Kristy were eliminated out of sheer bad luck...can u believe it? she unrolled some hundred hays but still failed to retrieve the clue...i had wished they cud have stayed longer and let the wrestlers go instead....but u know, Luck is the name of the game, u cant control it...

The stronger teams (hayden and Aaron, Kris and Jon) are still in the lead, while the middle pack remained where they were...i would love to see the underdogs move up the rank, and i consider father-daughter team (Gus and Hera) and grandparents team (Don and Mary Jean) the underdogs...afterall, it is all about luck and not so much on physical and mental challenges...of coz, that's jz my two cents worth...

Jz a matter of PR...

I have been contemplating alot regarding this matter lately...after some research, im sure i can save at least 70% of tuition studying as a PR rather than a foreigner...

No, it takes alot of effort and patience to get one...first off, u need to be eligible for it...*grin*..im pretty upset that mom has to give up hers when it is so valuable, well, at least it is now, since im planning to fly over, she could have easily applied one for me as her offspring then...

I s'pose she didnt see this coming, in the long run....or she did see it coming, but thought she cant afford it...who would have thought, or foreseen 911 incident was gonna happen? who would have guessed that after dat tragedy OUR country is gonna be seen as a terrorist country...i guess they thought that birds of a feather DO flock together...c'mon, give me a break, i aint gonna do no harm to ur country...im TOO dumb, remember?...it takes lotsa courage and expertise to fly straight into the towers, dun u think? Ive heard somewhere dat the dudes that flew the plane were two of their brightest citizen in their country...if only im honoured enough to be considered Malaysia's brightest citizen...dream on, Marc...

And so, with their security tightening to screen through as thorough as possible the ppl applying for their PR, it TAKES time...for goodness sake...my mom had reapplied for her PR at yr 1998, after releasing it for 20 yrs... the embassy promised her she'll BOUND to get hers in 10 yrs time, providing her sponsor (mom's bro) is still alive by that time...the queue is simply TOO long, i cant imagine there are so many pursuing that american dream...(at least not jz me, im not a weirdo afterall...)..Right now we're on the verge of stepping into 2005, simple calculation implies that there are three more yrs to go...fine...

I figured then i will only start studying again when im 26, not too old, since we'll nv quit studying or learning until we inhale our last breath...dat's promising enough, and shd justify my decision...:) About that plan of going to the states next summer, i hope the plan still stands...coz i cant wait...Geez, im getting this anti-malaysia syndrome more and more by the days...must be the traffic jam this morning, after seeing the fellow malaysians cutting queues and refused to cooperate and being impatient and being inconsiderate and being loathsome and...cant blame 'em, can i? they are merely respecting their culture, it has always been in their blood, and always will be...i hope im not offending anyone, aye?

The other day mom was telling me why she has given up her PR when she came back...firstly, after she got married, dad DIDNT want to move to states to settle down(if he had, i wont b borned, wud i?), apparently the weather was/is too cold for him...Grr~...so she has to stay too, hasnt she? she used to tell me while teasing my dad, dat if she had followed the doctor (a guy who was proposing to mom back then), she would have settled down happily in the states...and dad would defend himself that he had a Nurse gf too that he can go after...and the fight would go on...jz leave me alone in this battle of the sexes...

2ndly, it would mean some rather hefty expenses if she were to keep her PR and stay in Malaysia, as she would have to cough out airfare to US to get a stamp on a YEARLY basis...that's why she is encouraging Bro to get Australian PR, if he does come back, he can renew it every 5 yrs, dat's definitely worth the trip...with all that factors and the fact that we arent well off, she gathered that it'd b best to release it, her bro as a citizen can always sponsor her to get it back, at any one time...(she was wrong)....

Enough of all dat crap, given a chance, anyone would luv to leave this country for a better place, from the ppl who went abroad and came back, 9 out of 10 would wish to have stayed there, longer, if not forever...correct me if im wrong...