Wednesday, December 08, 2004

Ppl tell me that im desperate, they have NO idea...

This entire morning ive been having this song in mind...It has been long enough since i last had a serious relationship with anyone, Too long, in fact...

I dunno, it's not like i havent been scouring for that special someone, it's jz dat she hasnt appeared, and ive had far too much disappointment...to be honest, this whole thing is getting me a lil' jaded...

Lately, a close friend has commented that im too choosy and it's time to let go of this trait of mine...Oh, Puh-----leese...give me a break here, what's so superior in me that allows me the privilege to actually Choose someone? I know deep inside that i havent the look, not filthy rich, and not as charming as those pretty boys out there...Im jz an average Joe for crying out loud...

But that doesnt mean ive gotta accept anyone that comes along the way, does it? A relationship goes both way, and if there aint no spark, there wont b a burning fire, i wont even start the passionate part, where fire is concerned...

It's getting a lil' tough and somewhat awkward to hang around with my friends nowadays, everyone is hooked up with one another, and it's jz sad when u havent someone to cling on to...

There was this time when i went to a movie with two couples (they're all my best pals..), and i had to seat in the middle with them sandwiching me on both sides, now if that doesnt sound pathetic, what does? And jz to make me happy (out of sympathy), the boys would hangout with me while the gals went for shopping...

Of coz, there are still the bachelors around that'd ask me out for a drink or two at the bar and 'fish' out the eligible chicks...the truth is, if she's kewl enough to be a gf, wont she b taken already? Or she's like me, putting the 'on the prowl' status, that would suit me... :)

Allow me to digress...

So yesterday ive gone to TopMan for that 4h member sales...I got myself a shirt and a wallet, after the 20% discount, it came at 158.XX...so i asked the salesgal if i would be entitled to get two darts (they were having this dart game where you'd get to throw a dart for every 80 bucks u spent...).

She was like:Im so sorry Sir, you need to spend 160 to get 2 darts, why dun u pick out another merchandise to add on? It didnt piss me that ive gotta spend at least a couple of dollars more, but i was devastated that im not CHARMING (again) enough to make her forget bout the 2 bucks and give me one extra Freakin' Dart...

Feeling somewhat annoyed, i picked another singlet at 69, have 'em paid, got the STUPID darts, threw 'em, one dropped, another missed the Bull's eye, got the STUPID beg (ive got two already from previous throw..), and left...telling myself i aint gonna b bothered with EXTRA darts ANYMORE in the future...i dun even need the travelling beg for goodness sake...Jz becoz of dignity ive paid more...nvm, no next time...promise...

After that ive departed for Prayer Meeting as i was the backup singer, it was a nice fellowship and some pondering thoughts instilled by Pastor made me grow stronger, somehow...

Alrite, i guess i'll stop here for now, Niv is pestering me to bring her to Pyramid to get her winter cap and boots, she'll b leaving to London in 2W...u will b hearing more from me...

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