Down in the dumps...

I feel tired, like really tired...My mind's not thinking straight, keeps on dwelling in a certain fantasy in which i know doesnt make sense...it's just a dream, it'll never come true...or....will it?

Im exhausted, trying to convince everyone that it's ok to do what you want to do, but everyone just falls into the routine trap, playing the routine game, doing what they thought it's best for them, stripping away their dreams...or....do they even have one?

I wanna prove them wrong, i needa make the first step...life isnt about earning lotsa money, dun let that desire consumes us, money is ruling the world, we've gotta fight back...people are killing each other over money, they are losing sanity, they needa be saved...

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Church camp was great, well....great beaches, great weather, great surrounding...what more do you want?

Fine, Pastor Sophia was downright kewl, i must say i was and still am deeply inspired during the four days she was coaching us...i wouldnt say i am revived and the fire is burning profuselt, but i am seeing life in a far bigger picture now than before...

We were in Awana Kijal, Terengganu for four days...the place is beautiful, sandy beaches, lush green palms everywhere, strong breeze and the air is filled with the wonderful aroma of nature...

I guess i had my time-off there, de-stressing, and feeling God being near...It was a nice feeling, i felt calm, tranquilized...i felt free...

Earlier on the first day, i was feeling all cranky and fed up because the air-condition of the bus i was travelling in aint working...i had complained whole day...i regretted signing up for the camp...i was pissed...

After the session with Ps. Sophia, it seemed there was nothing to be angry about, it wasnt the most unfortunate thing that can happen...i was merely being a whiner...im ashamed of myself...i am immature...

I have learned of the art of having relationship with others...I learned how to live life to the fullest...i learned what's important in life, i wanna value the people around me...i think....lol...


No matter how strayed i am from God...i know deep inside, i will always return to Him at the end of the day...that should account for something right?

I love You, Lord...

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Ive managed to renew my IC, amended my Christian name, along with a testimony too...

So that morning i went to the registration department in Kota Damansara....the queue was hell long...luckily Mel was with me throughout the entire ordeal...so we got our number eventually, and what a bummer...we had to return in the afternoon at 2pm for our turn...

So came 2pm, and i just woke up from a nap, Mel was working...i got up, rushed to the office along with my number: 1143

Imagine my surprise when i reached the office at 2.40pm, i walked in, peering anxiously at the Counter, and saw the number there: 1142

and before i could digest what's going on, the counter rang, beckoning for customer having the number 1143...dump-founded, i walked to the respective station, and registered for application...

See...prayer helps....along the way, i was praying that i will not miss the number, to avoid having to wait longer in the office....and voila, i ended up wondering what wait actually means...Life's good...

At least that's what i thought when i had that blessing....on the way back, i had a punctured tyre....Yeah, and that spoiled my day completely...luckily Mel was on the rescue...*i regret to say changing tyre is not exactly my strong point*

She fetched me to find a mechanic, we got the dude, fixed the freakin tyre, and then life goes on again....

Lessons to learn: Get the number from a known mechanic to avoid getting stranded when the tyre decides to wear off...


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Gym regime: Currently doing Yoga, Body Jam, Body Steps and Body Combat...
Book im reading: Jim Clark's bio (Netscape founder)
Days to backpacking: hopefully before March next year
Current status: Im seeing someone right now... :)



Today im feeling: Kinda down, but cheering up a little...



Life's good...