God loves us...

So on Saturday, an interesting turn of event had taken place...

Zach has accepted Christ!! and i was responsible for it (well, i brought him to church, didnt i?)

It so happened that he was asking if i would like to hangout that day, i told him that i was expected at a Christmas drama (to become the spectator, i.e.)...so i counter-offered him if he would like to come to my church (you know, when you turn down someone's invitation, you are supposed to make yourself feel less bad and instead make a counter-offer, rather than some hocus pokus lame excuses, as a courtesy gesture)...

I never expected he would say yes (the dude's a buddhist, and you know how some of them are scared of church's activities, and would make an attempt to steer clear of it)...He had looked at me and said: Yeah, i'll come...

i was dumb-founded...you know when they say how easy it is to spread gospel without even trying? this is it...i didnt have to persuade and convince or coax...i was merely trying to make myself feel less guilty, and hence the invitation...and he has accepted the invitation...and im sure it is gonna turn out to be the most rewarding invitation in his entire life...Amen?

So i met him in Church, along with Jo, Mel and Ken...got him seated down, baby-sitting him the whole time for fear he would feel uncomfortable...the service started, we sang gospels and carols...i was anxious...he seemed at ease...no problem...the dude hasnt freaked out yet...i thought...

The drama commenced, so far so good...nothing major popped out...then speaker started with message...still kewl...no grimace and sudden movement...speaker made an altar call...now here's the deal....he RESPONDED the call....is that awesome or what? My heart was pounding so fast the entire time i was praying for his salvation...he has lifted up in his hand...and when i led him to the altar, he LET me...he has totally submitted himself...that is just so amazing...

Perhaps i worried too much...perhaps i havent trusted God will do his work...perhaps i havent had enough faith...

i feel so ashame of myself...Didnt God say all we need to do is to just go out and harvest it, and He will do the rest? The harvests are plentiful but the workers are few, send therefore, workers into the harvest field...Why have i doubted God? Why was i taken by surprise when Zach accepted Christ? Why didnt i expect miracles to happen?

I needa learn how to trust God, i needa learn how to submit to God, just like Zach did, i needa quieten myself...and listen...Where would my callings be? What do i do best? How can i make myself a useful vessel? I needa settle the conundrum in me...i needa obey...


i needa...


be still...