on books...

Lately ive bought alot of books to read...i don't know why i bought them, considering i don't even have time for 'em...my lopsided working hours is taking away my reading time...i sleep-in most afternoons and evenings, i work at night/early morning, i do yoga and pilates in late morning...i don't have time for books, and i have not watched telly for a while...

Right now im reading this book in the office...my supervisor recommended it, upon seeing my needs for it...

the name of the book is ' Self-efficacy', written by Albert Bandura...it doesn't take a genius to identify that it is some sorta self-help book...

Ive rarely read on self-help books...the last time ive picked up on one was when Mom got me these books from Andrew Matthew: Being Happy and Making Friends...

I still don't know why she got me those books...was i unhappy? was i deprived of friends? maybe i seldom talked to her bout the friends i hangout with, and hardly ever bring back my friends to introduce to her...one thing for sure, i dont need a book to tell me how to MAKE FRIENDS...yeah, that concludes it, i didnt finish the book... :)

Yeah, ive also read this book: The 7 Habits of Highly Effective People by Stephen R. Covey...im suspecting the current book im reading is somewhat talking bout the same thing...i guess the reason why everyone is pushing me to read this kinda self efficacy book is because im lack of efficiency...im just too laid back...im lazy...i procrastinate...and im a narcissist...

' Perceived self-efficacy refers to beliefs in one's capabilities to organize and execute the courses of action required to produce given attainments. '

I do acknowledge that the problem with me is that i lack the enthusiam that is required to get things done...i expect other people to do things for me...im spoilt, taking everything for granted, wanting everything to go my way...im just too naive....

People's belief's in their efficacy have diverse effects. Such beliefs influence the courses of action people choose to pursue, how much effort they put forth in given endeavors, how long they will persevere in face of obstacles and failures, their resilience to adversity, whether their thought patterns are self-hindering or self-aiding, how much stress and depression they experience in coping with taxing environmental demands, and the level of accomplishments they realize.

It's about time to get my acts together
it's about time to stand up and make a statement
it's about time to prove other people wrong
it's about time to stop being childish
it's about time to take up the responsibilities expected of me
it's about time to do what i want to do (hehe...still self-centred...sorry bout that)

I always have this motto in life: 'Just Do it' (inspired by Nike's), and im not ashamed that i'm adapting to this way of life...someone might perceive it as a selfish act, others might say that's immature thinking...

but that's just me...i take pride in that i live not for others, i don't hafta please ANYONE...and im not gonna change just for about ANYTHING...

I am who i am, like it or not, accept it, or don't bother at all...


that's why i need to finish this book...LOL