Travel Quotes

"The world is a book, and those who do not travel read only a page." ~ St. Augustine

"There are no foreign lands. It is the traveler only who is foreign." ~ Robert Louis Stevenson

"He who would travel happily must travel light." ~ Antoine de Saint-Exupery

"A man travels the world over in search of what he needs and returns home to find it." ~ George Moore

"Two roads diverged in a wood, and I--I took the one less traveled by, And that has made all the difference." ~ Robert Frost

"For my part, I travel not to go anywhere, but to go. I travel for travel's sake. The great affair is to move." ~ Robert Louis Stevenson

"A good traveller has no fixed plan and is not intent on arriving." ~ Lao Tzu

"Tourists don't know where they've been, travellers don't know where they're going." ~ Paul Theroux

"Stripped of your ordinary surroundings, your friends, your daily routines, your refrigerator full of food, your closet full of clothes - with all this taken away, you are forced into direct experience. Such direct experience inevitably makes you aware of who it is that is having the experience. That's not always comfortable, but it is always invigorating." ~ Michael Crichton

"Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things you didn't do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines, sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover." ~ Mark Twain

". . .life is short and the world is wide" ~ Simon Raven

"Certainly travel is more than the seeing of sights; it is a change that goes on, deep and permanent, in the ideas of living." ~ Miriam Beard

"All that is gold does not glitter, Not all those who wander are lost" ~ J. R. R. Tolkien

"Those who visit foreign nations, but associate only with their own country-men, change their climate, but not their customs. They see new meridians, but the same men; and with heads as empty as their pockets, return home with travelled bodies, but untravelled minds." ~ Caleb Colton

"The man who goes alone can start today; but he who travels with another must wait till that other is ready." ~ Henry David Thoreau

"All journeys have secret destinations of which the traveller is unaware." ~ Martin Buber

"Perhaps travel cannot prevent bigotry, but by demonstrating that all peoples cry, laugh, eat, worry, and die, it can introduce the idea that if we try and understand each other, we may even become friends." ~ Maya Angelou

on books...

Lately ive bought alot of books to read...i don't know why i bought them, considering i don't even have time for 'em...my lopsided working hours is taking away my reading time...i sleep-in most afternoons and evenings, i work at night/early morning, i do yoga and pilates in late morning...i don't have time for books, and i have not watched telly for a while...

Right now im reading this book in the office...my supervisor recommended it, upon seeing my needs for it...

the name of the book is ' Self-efficacy', written by Albert Bandura...it doesn't take a genius to identify that it is some sorta self-help book...

Ive rarely read on self-help books...the last time ive picked up on one was when Mom got me these books from Andrew Matthew: Being Happy and Making Friends...

I still don't know why she got me those books...was i unhappy? was i deprived of friends? maybe i seldom talked to her bout the friends i hangout with, and hardly ever bring back my friends to introduce to her...one thing for sure, i dont need a book to tell me how to MAKE FRIENDS...yeah, that concludes it, i didnt finish the book... :)

Yeah, ive also read this book: The 7 Habits of Highly Effective People by Stephen R. Covey...im suspecting the current book im reading is somewhat talking bout the same thing...i guess the reason why everyone is pushing me to read this kinda self efficacy book is because im lack of efficiency...im just too laid back...im lazy...i procrastinate...and im a narcissist...

' Perceived self-efficacy refers to beliefs in one's capabilities to organize and execute the courses of action required to produce given attainments. '

I do acknowledge that the problem with me is that i lack the enthusiam that is required to get things done...i expect other people to do things for me...im spoilt, taking everything for granted, wanting everything to go my way...im just too naive....

People's belief's in their efficacy have diverse effects. Such beliefs influence the courses of action people choose to pursue, how much effort they put forth in given endeavors, how long they will persevere in face of obstacles and failures, their resilience to adversity, whether their thought patterns are self-hindering or self-aiding, how much stress and depression they experience in coping with taxing environmental demands, and the level of accomplishments they realize.

It's about time to get my acts together
it's about time to stand up and make a statement
it's about time to prove other people wrong
it's about time to stop being childish
it's about time to take up the responsibilities expected of me
it's about time to do what i want to do (hehe...still self-centred...sorry bout that)

I always have this motto in life: 'Just Do it' (inspired by Nike's), and im not ashamed that i'm adapting to this way of life...someone might perceive it as a selfish act, others might say that's immature thinking...

but that's just me...i take pride in that i live not for others, i don't hafta please ANYONE...and im not gonna change just for about ANYTHING...

I am who i am, like it or not, accept it, or don't bother at all...


that's why i need to finish this book...LOL

Perhaps. Get Lost?

Im so looking forward to New Year...it always brings New Hope, New Beginning, and lotsa changes...i aspire to change, i really do...i wanna become a better person, to myself and to the people around me...Alright, that will go right on top of my new year resolution list...

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Earlier i had wanted to catch King Kong...but i was astounded by the crowd, and was much disgusted with it...it makes me sick whenever i see lotsa people gathering together, for no apparent reason....geez, it's tuesday night for goodness sake...what are you folks doing here watching movie?...i had wanted to tell them: Do me a favour and get the H*** outta here...

so in the end i had to satisfy myself with the lousiest movie ive watched in the entire 2005...well, at least it managed to go into the worst movie list, for that matter...yeah, i accidentally watched Perhaps Love...

I wont even bother narrating here...truth is, i fell asleep half way through the show...and have no idea what happened in the end...my friend told me the couple sorta went away together...cliche....why am i not surprised? lousy songs and tunes aside, there's not much performance where the casts are concerned...ratings: 1/10...1 point for their attempt to create a broadway-musical-lookalike...and that's it...they failed miserably...not worth mentioning...and wont recommend anyone to watch it...you'll be better off watching some street dance...

I woke up just when the movie ended and everyone was fidgeting, trying to get outta the cinema in no time...we adjourned to Bar Sava for a harmless drink, and then i went straight to work...

im feeling groggy...i needa sleep...

Mission started...

Yay, today ive finally made my first move to realising my backpacking plan...actually it wont be the first step, considering ive renewed my national ID just for the sake of getting outta the country...(not because of the deadline, who cares bout the deadline?)

So earlier...i found out that the NZ Visa online application for Malaysian applicants is being enabled at the official immigration website...i was thrilled...reason? Now i don't hafta hop all the way to Singapore to apply for my visa...i can do it all online...hence saving all the travelling fees...

and YES, ive made the payment for the processing fees...paid through credit card online...im not sure if it is secure, what im sure is, it's gonna save me lotsa hassle to go to the Embassy to make the payment...and geez, it's a whopping $120 NZD....just to process the Visa...and NO, they don't guarantee that your application will be successful, it's all subject to approval...so say, in the event that it is rejected (touch wood), my money will just be absorbed, like that...

Ive also checked out the airfares...and it aint as cheap as i thought it'd be...gosh, it's another RM3600 at least via SIA...and i needa bring over $4200 NZD to prove that i have enough funds to sustain myself while im there for a maximum of six months...(malaysians can only stay for 6 mths...such discrimination)...

I plan to go once ive obtained my national ID (needed as a second document to prove my nationality, other than passport)...and that means i needa wait at least six months...come to think of it, it'd be good to save as much as i can during this six months, so that i don't hafta use the money in FD...

Well, now that i've applied for the visa, i can only seat here and wait for its approval...*fingers crossed*...i only hope i can get the Visa, otherwise i will hafta look for other destinations to lay my foot on...On second thought, instead of getting a return ticket to NZ, i will just purchase a one way ticket, and then i can decide where i will go from there once my six months' off...im not sure if i will get into trouble with the customs for having a one-way ticket, but it's worth the risk...i heard that the ticket from NZ to Aus is kinda cheap...hehe...or maybe i can go tasmania for a while...or Christmas island...is all about the south pacific for now...

In the mean time, i can search for some backpackers' jobs online...i found that working in the vineyard can fetch $15 an hour...im just wondering how tough it'd be...or i can work in the farm, at the dairies, helping to make cheese...you can even get free accommodation if you help to make beds for three hours at the hostel...

Im happy...

Happy Birthday, Jesus...

I guess i've finally redeemed myself...

Did i go to Christmas countdown with friends? No.
Did i go partying on Christmas eve? No.
Did i go drinking? Not really.
Did i embrace the much commercialised atmosphere in malls? Not so much.
Did i celebrate Christmas thinking Santa is the main character like the non-believers? Nope.
Did i spend Christmas eve with my family? Yes i did... :)

And so while the others were busy partying on Christmas eve, i was having some quality time with my parents...we watched some Christmas theme movies, we drank wine, we toasted and we celebrated Christmas...the way it should be celebrated...Christmas is a time when you spend time with your family, letting them know how much you appreciate their being with you, and that you love them...

I will make an effort to always spend Christmas with my family...perhaps not every easter, perhaps not every thanksgiving, but Christmas is reserved for family...(so i guess if i want a white Christmas, they will have to be where i'll be..)..

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Christmas day cum Sunday service in church could not be better...we had this drama which is phenomenal...the casts are all so talented, and how effectively they delivered the message to ths audiences...the church was PACKED...literally, we (the youths) had to surrender our seats to the elders and ended up piling at the stairs...After the service, there was this banquet where we got the chance to pow wow with each other and wishing Merry Christmas to the folks...

everyone was spirited, how sweet is the sound around us, and the fragrance of God's presence...it's just awesome...

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in the evening, i brought my family to have dinner at The Ship...yeah, i TREATED them...my parents were all smile when i said i would pay for the dinner...they toasted for me instantly, and that grin on their face just wont go away...i was sorta blushing as well...to think that im finally paying the bill...As if not putting the pressure on me, Mom said she would PAY for New Year's eve dinner, making me feel that im not obligated to pay for the family meal from now on...not after ive made a statement that i can provide them financially...

Christmas is just so nice...everyone, whether believers or non-believers are soaked with this spirit that is inexplicable...We don't feel that during CNY, we don't feel that during Hari Raya, we don't feel that during Deepavali...Christmas is celebrated by everyone, irregardless of their race and religion...

All is calm, all is bright...everyone coming together in one, to witness the Birth of our saviour...Jesus is the Lord...now i bet no one would beg to differ on this, right? Amen...

I love Santa...

Here comes Santa Claus, here comes Santa Claus,


Right down Santa Claus lane


Vixen and Blitzen and all his reindeer


Pullin' on the reins


Bells are ringin', children singin'


All is merry and bright


Hang your stockings and say your prayers


'Cause Santa Claus comes tonight!



Here comes Santa Claus, here comes Santa Claus,


Right down Santa Claus lane


He's got a bag that's filled with toys


For boys and girls again


Hear those sleigh bells jingle jangle,


Oh what a beautiful sight


So jump in bed and cover your head


'Cause Santa Claus comes tonight!



Here comes Santa Claus, here comes Santa Claus,


Right down Santa Claus lane


He doesn't care if you're rich or poor


He loves you just the same


Santa Claus knows we're all Gods children


That makes everything right


So fill your hearts with Christmas cheer


'Cause Santa Claus comes tonight!



Here comes Santa Claus, here comes Santa Claus,


Right down Santa Claus lane


He'll come around when the chimes ring out


That it's Christmas morn again


Peace on earth will come to all


It we just follow the light


So lets give thanks to the lord above


That Santa Claus comes tonight!

Christmas party

Earlier we were all celebrating Christmas at Peter's Penthouse in Riana Green...

we sang, we caroled, we gave testimony, we shared God's word, we ate, we drank, we toasted, we caught up with each other, we made new friends, we talked, we played games, we exchanged gifts...we were Merry...

I got this nice gift from dont-know-who...it is a festive seasons' coaster...come in snowman's shape and colour, along with a candle holder too...it is really cute...im glad i picked this one...

I also received a hugo edt and a t-shirt from a friend, along with a very nice card with very touching words inside...the party dismissed at around midnight, so i brought my friend to Matrix to grab some drinks, before starting work at 1am...

i was rather upset that i couldnt stay longer at the bar, and gotta keep myself sober while maintaining my composure...so i kept it low, and only ordered Mai Tai and Sex on the Beach...yeah cocktails...with absolutely negligible alcohol contained...

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Tomorrow night will be another sleepless night, not because i hafta work, but because ive gotta have a Karaoke session with some friends...

im hoping i will be able to rest on Holy Night...

when everyone and everything is at peace...where your heart is set to rest...

and you dream of the Manger...

and the Holy One...

and yourself...

becoming one...

Sleepy...

today after work i spent some few hours hunting for some last minute Christmas gifts...

i was in 1-U, enjoying the morning crowd, or...i wouldn't call it a crowd, there was hardly anyone there when i walked in at 10 in the morning, except for some staff busy getting their shops ready for patrons, and some dancers practising their ballet steps on the stage with an elaborate backdrops and flamboyant-coloured props and settings...

I always like it when i didnt have to share the mall with ALOT of people...think weekends, think public holidays...I can take my time strolling casually, picking my items in my own sweet world, without having someone breathing down your neck, or trying to walk past you, or wondering what you are looking at, waiting behind you so that they can find out what interests you so much...Malaysians are just so curious, so KEH POH...I detest those who bring along their kids and let them running around like lunatics, shouting at each other, with ultra high pitch frequency...I hate it when the diners are filled with hungry and impatient customers, all demanding to be served first...I just don't like to go to the mall when there are ALOT of people...

There is this shop in 1-U in which i like and find it very interesting indeed...The name of the shop is Gizmo, and they sell products, very kewl products...i was looking at this gadget earlier in which it can tell you what you were thinking, by asking you a series of 20 questions...so before pressing the start button, i think of her...and then i start answering the questions...toward the end, when i was convinced that the stupid gadget is a flop and will never tell what i was thinking...it said: I am gonna win...so when i answered the final question and the machine asked if i was thinking of a human body...i was FLABBERGASTED...this is just so creepy...

i was thinking of buying the item at RM90, but i thought i should come back later when they have a sale of something...apparently the toy was crowned the coolest item in a recent poll, took place in Tokyo...and im telling ya, it is kewl...

there are several other items which interest me alot...but they are pricey as well...i like this toy that claimed that you can sorta 'rear' ants and see their daily activities, digging holes, making tunnels and passageway...it is transparent and the box contains some gel-like substance...i will get it somehow...

So i got some Christmas gifts from Body Shop, Memory lane, and Room...and proceeded to buy some clothes...went into AX and saw this shirt that's attractive and priced at 499, but alas, they do not have my size...eventually i didnt buy alot of stuff for myself as i was getting so tired due to lack of sleep and headed home...

Im gonna try to shop again tomorrow at the curve, i still have few gifts to get for several friends...Gosh, ive spent alot already today...needa save up some money for new year eve as well...but you know, the salary will be issued then...no worries...

:)


Happy Yuletide...

Yay, i got framed...

I used to remember when someone told me that the working world is not as obliging as it seems...i was skeptical...thinking what would people do to me if im being nothing but nice and humble, and treating others with respect...i was wrong...

So early this morning the boss has summoned me into the board room for a hush-hush discussion...it turned out that someone has been logging in as me in the admin panel and helped themselves with real gifts and money...You see, one of the privilege i have in the office is the ability to issue real money tickets to player for their playing pleasure, and yes, everything is in DOLLAR!

The boss showed me a log displaying the tickets that i have been giving away to several accounts in MALAYSIA...now one thing we dont do here, is that we do not serve MALAYSIAN customers...the value of the tickets amount to hundred of dollars and my name was shown as being the agent responsible for it...

He looked at me and said: did you do it?
I looked at him, replied: The fact that you are even considering the possibility of me commiting the crime upsets me...

so that spells it all...we went through the investigation together, i supplied him with relevant information, we examined the nitty gritty, and then i went back...

While i was sleeping earlier, he called, saying all has been sorted out, the culprit has confessed, and being given the AX...geez, ive gotten someone terminated...come to think of it, i have no involvement at all, what was he thinking trying to frame me like that? He should be glad that he's not subject to serving time behind bar, as the boss said he would spare him the prosecution...

And all this while i was ignorant...i thought everyone was kewl with me...now my integrity is being questioned, my credibility is being compromised, and my capability is being doubted upon...that aint good...

I spoke to boss, saying, I WANT OUT...this hostile environment is just not healthy...He offered to bring me over to another company of his...and yeah, im gonna start all over again...

I wouldnt say that's a bad thing...everything happens for a reason...and i always trust the sign whenever i see one...God's behind all this...

Im looking forward to a good start...

Im complacent...

for now...


(when will i be given a sabbatical? I need one, badly...)

God loves us...

So on Saturday, an interesting turn of event had taken place...

Zach has accepted Christ!! and i was responsible for it (well, i brought him to church, didnt i?)

It so happened that he was asking if i would like to hangout that day, i told him that i was expected at a Christmas drama (to become the spectator, i.e.)...so i counter-offered him if he would like to come to my church (you know, when you turn down someone's invitation, you are supposed to make yourself feel less bad and instead make a counter-offer, rather than some hocus pokus lame excuses, as a courtesy gesture)...

I never expected he would say yes (the dude's a buddhist, and you know how some of them are scared of church's activities, and would make an attempt to steer clear of it)...He had looked at me and said: Yeah, i'll come...

i was dumb-founded...you know when they say how easy it is to spread gospel without even trying? this is it...i didnt have to persuade and convince or coax...i was merely trying to make myself feel less guilty, and hence the invitation...and he has accepted the invitation...and im sure it is gonna turn out to be the most rewarding invitation in his entire life...Amen?

So i met him in Church, along with Jo, Mel and Ken...got him seated down, baby-sitting him the whole time for fear he would feel uncomfortable...the service started, we sang gospels and carols...i was anxious...he seemed at ease...no problem...the dude hasnt freaked out yet...i thought...

The drama commenced, so far so good...nothing major popped out...then speaker started with message...still kewl...no grimace and sudden movement...speaker made an altar call...now here's the deal....he RESPONDED the call....is that awesome or what? My heart was pounding so fast the entire time i was praying for his salvation...he has lifted up in his hand...and when i led him to the altar, he LET me...he has totally submitted himself...that is just so amazing...

Perhaps i worried too much...perhaps i havent trusted God will do his work...perhaps i havent had enough faith...

i feel so ashame of myself...Didnt God say all we need to do is to just go out and harvest it, and He will do the rest? The harvests are plentiful but the workers are few, send therefore, workers into the harvest field...Why have i doubted God? Why was i taken by surprise when Zach accepted Christ? Why didnt i expect miracles to happen?

I needa learn how to trust God, i needa learn how to submit to God, just like Zach did, i needa quieten myself...and listen...Where would my callings be? What do i do best? How can i make myself a useful vessel? I needa settle the conundrum in me...i needa obey...


i needa...


be still...

getting laid back...

Today i slept in the entire day, and when i say entire, i mean THE WHOLE DAY...

The sty in my left eye is healing, and it has become less swollen and reddish, which is a good thing, i dont need that Oakley afterall...

So i woke up around 11+, denied Dad's offer of his fried rice, as i do not feel like eating anything at all...my throat's sore, and i have a couple of ulsers lurking somewhere around my underlips and mouth...Eating is so not an option...Drinking hurts too...Geez, what's going wrong with my body? I feel like Pyro, i feel like my system is heating up...i feel as if the country is too hot for me...

On the contrary, the weather today is uncommonly cold, i mean REALLY cold...c'est froid...I didnt have to turn on the A/C while i was having my siesta...plus, rain came pouring down torrentially around 5, i was freezing, i felt as if i was in a foreign country, i was contented...

Dad brought back some sandwiches and bagels from Crowne Plaza around noon, so i got my ass up and started on the sandwiches...nice stuff...smoked salmon, turkey ham, cheddar...absolutely awesome...I watched Judging Amy, Globe trekker in Ireland and Paris, and then switched to some downloaded series of Charmed season 8...I always enjoy watching the sisters kick butt...they are much cooler than Charlie's angel, they can orb, they can blow demons off, they can cast spell, they are just so cute...

After that, yes...i went back to embrace my lovely bed, the sweet scent, and the most comfortable comforter ever...i was unconcious, like literally...slept through dinner and only woke up around 11pm when Mom called...My parents and my brother have gone to watch King Kong in the evening, i rejected their invitation because i had wanted to SLEEEP...so they got home around 11.30pm, made me some supper, and waited till 12.30am when i leave for work...

I felt sad...that i didnt get to spend more time with them because of my lopsided working hours...i felt sorry that i had to turn down a movie treat with my family...i felt guilty that sleeping is more important than my family...i felt bad...

I will make an effort to attend a wedding dinner with them tomorrow...

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Plans for the next few days:

21st: work out and shop for CHristmas gifts
22nd: Attend Christmas party
23rd: Whole night Karaoke Session with Mel and Jo
24th: Christmas eve, hangout with family and friends, Dinner at some posh place...
25th: Christmas Day...too many activities
26th: Taking the day off...will hang around somewhere
27th: Plan to get my passport fixed
28th: Dinner date with anonymous friend
29th: Dinner and Movie date with Lover
30th: No plans yet
31st: Fond Yee's wedding Dinner and count down/party after that
1st: Expecting a major hangover, will sleep in (or will i?)
2nd: Jo's bday...will celebrate at her favourite joint
3rd: taking the day off...plan to go up to Genting with the gals for some slots fun
4th: ....
5th: ....
6th: ....
7th: ....
8th: Bro's bday/family day

Just feel like singing...

O Holy Night Lyrics
Christmas Carol Lyrics
O Holy Night! The stars are brightly shining,
It is the night of the dear Saviour's birth.
Long lay the world in sin and error pining.
Till He appeared and the Spirit felt its worth.
A thrill of hope the weary world rejoices,
For yonder breaks a new and glorious morn.
Fall on your knees! Oh, hear the angel voices!
O night divine, the night when Christ was born;
O night, O Holy Night , O night divine!
O night, O Holy Night , O night divine!

Led by the light of faith serenely beaming,
With glowing hearts by His cradle we stand.
O'er the world a star is sweetly gleaming,
Now come the wisemen from out of the Orient land.
The King of kings lay thus lowly manger;
In all our trials born to be our friends.
He knows our need, our weakness is no stranger,
Behold your King! Before him lowly bend!
Behold your King! Before him lowly bend!

Truly He taught us to love one another,
His law is love and His gospel is peace.
Chains he shall break, for the slave is our brother.
And in his name all oppression shall cease.
Sweet hymns of joy in grateful chorus raise we,
With all our hearts we praise His holy name.
Christ is the Lord! Then ever, ever praise we,
His power and glory ever more proclaim!
His power and glory ever more proclaim!

Narnia and swollen eye...

Im not feeling good, i have a swollen eye, it's infected again...maybe it's time to invest on a decent pair of dark glasses...geez, how am i supposed to go to the Christmas drama this weekend looking like Hellboy? My eye aint cool, it's red, it's swelling, and it's not seducive...Again, really needa buy a pair of Oakley...I have written down lotsa items on the shopping list, and there is just so much money that i could spend, so...gotta set my priority straight...I need to buy a new cam for my trip, like a really kewl one, after ive decided im not gonna get the DVD-camcorder from SOny...i thought it aint exactly a good idea going on a backpack trip with a camcorder, because...im not filming a travel documentary, am i? and a 2.2 mega pixel just wont do for still images...So, Digicam it is...

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Im on the verge of calling it quit for this current job of mine...ive even composed the resignation letter...i am determined...

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This morning was unbelievable, i went for three classes in fitness first...I started off with power Yoga, and then followed by Body Jam, and concluded my gym session with Body balance...yeah, so i did lotsa balancing and stretching today...very timely as well...as im much stressed out lately...really need some relaxation and meditation session...

I felt fresh after working out, and agreed to a movie request with Aster...we watched Narnia...say...aint too bad, nice cgi, nice array of creatures....think minotaur, think satyr, think centaur...and some nice childish conversation in nice british accent....and yeah, talking animals are cute too, how nice it is if we have it here on earth...all in all, good entertainment altogether...

Im watching King Kong tonight....im praying that my eye wont swell to the extent that it affects my vision...not gonna pay a cinema ticket but get a tv-sized vision...

Im sleepy...

The transition...

I have been taking pride in that i have never had the need to work part time while schooling...Pocket money is a-plenty and my parents never ceased to fund me or sponsor me whenever i needa invest in something huge...think Piano, think Laptop, think Car, think all kinda other gadgets...

So i was caught offguard, utterly surprised, when dad extended his hand and actually asked if i have $100 to spare....OMG, i cudnt believe my ears, for 23 years of my life, this is the first time that Dad has ever asked me for money...what a monent to be cherished, what a moment of dignity, what a moment of acknowledgement...Im finally a grown-up in his eyes, financially independent and can do what i want, whenever and wherever...Im free!

What happened next totally upsets me however....he was grinning from head to toe, and then without warning, he tossed me an envelope...it was addressed to him...i opened it up, read through the content, and put on a disgusted expression...It was from MPPJ...geez, that means the cat is out of the sock...

So dad said: trying to get me in jail huh? well apparently the letter is a warning against issuing a legal letter should he fail to settle the dept of $100....and i was speechless...and my later attempt to persuade him to ignore the letter proved futile...he wont hear of it...such a wuss...

I got the ticket when i parked my car without displaying a parking ticket for a mere 5 minutes somewhere near Hilton, PJ...i had actually disposed the ticket upon consultation with some of the frequent ticket collectors in the office...they managed to convince me not to give a D*** to the ticket and get along with my life...and i was thinking that time, why should i bother paying the council, what have i done? i havent obstructed traffic...i couldnt find the paying machine (i know this sounds lame)...i was only gone for 5 minutes....and PUH-----LEESE....a fine of $100? is that daylight robbery or what? you've gotta be kidding me....

So when dad was waving the $100 note in the air, enjoying the grimace on my face, i had a strong urge to grab and retrieve my money...but as if sensing my motive, he was gone in a thrice...GOSH, i cud get a decent meal for that, cudnt i? Say an appetizer of escargot, a piece of juicy, succulent steak, some cocktails, and some melting deserts...but on second thought, im on a diet...oh whatever, im now $100 poorer...

It's time to get some Christmas Gifts, gosh, Mel wanted that Roxy purse and Jo had asked for a Braun Buffel...they really think im printing money, arent they? something for mom, none for dad...maybe i will just buy some wine back...Im hoping to get a bottle of EDT for my present...Gosh, dun i love Christmas?


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So yesterday while having buffet dinner at Crowne Plaza, Mutiara, i saw lotsa international media and delegates hobnobbing there...oh...they are all staying there, arent they? they should be pretty bz for tomorrow's ASEAN Summit...there was this woman, i think her tag says she's from Australia...and man, she's gorgeous...and so while i was observing all this, i had one thing in mind...i wanna work as the press, media people, spokesperson, whatever, you name it...it's so nice travelling to other country and get to know other people from other country...not paparazzi though, i dun really fancy blood-hounding some celebs, as if you would like a piece of them...

i need a career change...i wanna be part of the globe-trekker team, or lonely planet, or traveller...i wanna be free....I AM FREE....


I am happy...

Down in the dumps...

I feel tired, like really tired...My mind's not thinking straight, keeps on dwelling in a certain fantasy in which i know doesnt make sense...it's just a dream, it'll never come true...or....will it?

Im exhausted, trying to convince everyone that it's ok to do what you want to do, but everyone just falls into the routine trap, playing the routine game, doing what they thought it's best for them, stripping away their dreams...or....do they even have one?

I wanna prove them wrong, i needa make the first step...life isnt about earning lotsa money, dun let that desire consumes us, money is ruling the world, we've gotta fight back...people are killing each other over money, they are losing sanity, they needa be saved...

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Church camp was great, well....great beaches, great weather, great surrounding...what more do you want?

Fine, Pastor Sophia was downright kewl, i must say i was and still am deeply inspired during the four days she was coaching us...i wouldnt say i am revived and the fire is burning profuselt, but i am seeing life in a far bigger picture now than before...

We were in Awana Kijal, Terengganu for four days...the place is beautiful, sandy beaches, lush green palms everywhere, strong breeze and the air is filled with the wonderful aroma of nature...

I guess i had my time-off there, de-stressing, and feeling God being near...It was a nice feeling, i felt calm, tranquilized...i felt free...

Earlier on the first day, i was feeling all cranky and fed up because the air-condition of the bus i was travelling in aint working...i had complained whole day...i regretted signing up for the camp...i was pissed...

After the session with Ps. Sophia, it seemed there was nothing to be angry about, it wasnt the most unfortunate thing that can happen...i was merely being a whiner...im ashamed of myself...i am immature...

I have learned of the art of having relationship with others...I learned how to live life to the fullest...i learned what's important in life, i wanna value the people around me...i think....lol...


No matter how strayed i am from God...i know deep inside, i will always return to Him at the end of the day...that should account for something right?

I love You, Lord...

*******

Ive managed to renew my IC, amended my Christian name, along with a testimony too...

So that morning i went to the registration department in Kota Damansara....the queue was hell long...luckily Mel was with me throughout the entire ordeal...so we got our number eventually, and what a bummer...we had to return in the afternoon at 2pm for our turn...

So came 2pm, and i just woke up from a nap, Mel was working...i got up, rushed to the office along with my number: 1143

Imagine my surprise when i reached the office at 2.40pm, i walked in, peering anxiously at the Counter, and saw the number there: 1142

and before i could digest what's going on, the counter rang, beckoning for customer having the number 1143...dump-founded, i walked to the respective station, and registered for application...

See...prayer helps....along the way, i was praying that i will not miss the number, to avoid having to wait longer in the office....and voila, i ended up wondering what wait actually means...Life's good...

At least that's what i thought when i had that blessing....on the way back, i had a punctured tyre....Yeah, and that spoiled my day completely...luckily Mel was on the rescue...*i regret to say changing tyre is not exactly my strong point*

She fetched me to find a mechanic, we got the dude, fixed the freakin tyre, and then life goes on again....

Lessons to learn: Get the number from a known mechanic to avoid getting stranded when the tyre decides to wear off...


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Gym regime: Currently doing Yoga, Body Jam, Body Steps and Body Combat...
Book im reading: Jim Clark's bio (Netscape founder)
Days to backpacking: hopefully before March next year
Current status: Im seeing someone right now... :)



Today im feeling: Kinda down, but cheering up a little...



Life's good...

Marbles...

Got this article from a friend and thought it could inspire some of us...

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The older I get, the more I enjoy Saturday mornings. Perhaps with being the first to rise, or maybe it's the unbounded joy of not having to be at work. Either way, the first few hours of a Saturday morning are most enjoyable.

A few weeks ago, I was shuffling toward the kitchen with a steaming cup of coffee in one hand and the morning paper in the other. What began as a typical Saturday morning turned into one of those lessons that life seems to hand you from time to time? Let me tell you about it.

I turned the volume up on my radio in order to listen to a Saturday morning talk show. I heard an older sounding chap with a golden voice. You know the kind, he sounded like he should be in the broadcasting business himself.

He was talking about "a thousand marbles" to someone named "Tom." I was intrigued and sat down to listen to what he had to say.

"Well, Tom, it sure sounds like you're busy with your job. I'm sure they pay you well but it's a shame you have to be away from home and your family so much. Hard to believe a young fellow should have to work sixty or seventy hours a week to make ends meet. Too bad you missed your daughter's dance recital."

He continued, "Let me tell you something Tom, something that has helped me keep a good perspective on my own priorities." And that's when he began to explain his theory of a "thousand marbles."

"You see, I sat down one day and did a little arithmetic. The average person lives about seventy-five years. I know, some live more and some live less, but on average, folks live about seventy-five years." "Now then, I multiplied 75 times 52 and I came up with 3900 which is the number of Saturdays that the average person has in their entire lifetime. Now stick with me Tom, I'm getting to the important part."

"It took me until I was fifty-five years old to think about all this in any detail," he went on, "and by that time I had lived through over twenty-eight hundred Saturdays. I got to thinking that if I lived to be seventy-five, I only had about a thousand of them left to enjoy."

"So I went to a toy store and bought every single marble they had. I ended up having to visit three toy stores to round-up 1000 marbles. I took them home and put them inside of a large, clear plastic container right here in my workshop next to the radio. Every Saturday since then, I have taken one marble out and thrown it away." "I found that by watching the marbles diminish, I focused more on the really important things in life. There is nothing like watching your time here on this earth run out to help get your priorities straight."

"Now let me tell you one last thing before I sign-off with you and take my lovely wife out for breakfast. This morning, I took the very last marble out of the container. I figure if I make it until next Saturday then God has blessed me with a little extra time to be with my loved ones......

"It was nice to talk to you Tom, I hope you spend more time with your loved ones, and I hope to meet you again someday. Have a good morning!"

You could have heard a pin drop when he finished. Even the show's moderator didn't have anything to say for a few moments. I guess he gave us all a lot to think about. I had planned to do some work that morning, and then go to the gym. Instead, I went upstairs and woke my wife up with a kiss. "C'mon honey, I'm taking you and the kids to breakfast."

"What brought this on?" she asked with a smile."Oh, nothing special," I said. "It has just been a long time since we spent a Saturday together with the kids. Hey, can we stop at a toy store while we're out? I need to buy some marbles."

Are you a carrot, egg or coffee bean?

Are you a carrot, egg or coffee bean?
>> > >
>> > > Which one of these items do you fall under. These examples
reflect
>> > > something about us. A carrot, an egg and a cup of coffee.
You will
>> > > never look at a cup of coffee the same way again.
>> > >
>> > > A young woman went to her mother and told her about her
life, and
>> > > how things were so hard for her. She did not know how she
was
>>going
>> > > to make it and wanted to give up. She was tired of fighting
and
>> > > struggling. It seemed as one problem was solved, a new one
arose.
>> > >
>> > > Her mother took her to the kitchen. She filled three pots
with
>>water
>> > > and placed each on a high fire. Soon the pots came to
boil. In
>>the
>> > > first she placed carrots, in the second she placed eggs,
and in the
>> > > last she placed ground coffee beans. She let them sit and
boil,
>> > > without saying a word.
>> > >
>> > > In about twenty minutes, she turned off the burners. She
fished
>>the
>> > > carrots out and placed them in a bowl. She pulled the
eggs out
>>and
>> > > placed them in a bowl. Then she ladled the coffee out and
placed it
>> > > in a bowl.
>> > >
>> > > Turning to her daughter, she asked, "Tell me, what do you
see?"
>> > > "Carrots, eggs, and coffee," she replied. Her mother
brought her
>> > > closer and asked her to feel the carrots. She did and noted
that
>>they
>> > > were soft.
>> > >
>> > > The mother then asked the daughter to take an egg and
break it.
>> > > After pulling off the shell, she observed the hard boiled
egg.
>> > > Finally,the mother asked the daughter to sip the coffee.
>> > >
>> > > The daughter smiled as she tasted its rich aroma. The
daughter
>>then
>> > > asked, "What does it mean, mother?"
>> > >
>> > > Her mother explained that each of these objects had faced
the
>>same
>> > > adversity ... boiling water. Each reacted differently.
The carrot
>> > > went in strong, hard, and unrelenting. However, after
being
>> > > subjected to the boiling water, it softened and became
weak. The
>> > > egg had been fragile. Its thin outer shell had protected
its liquid
>> > > interior, but after sitting through the boiling water, its
inside
>> > > became hardened.
>> > >
>> > > The ground coffee beans were unique, however. After they
were in
>>the
>> > > boiling water, the coffe beans had changed the water.
>> > >
>> > > "Which are you?" she asked her daughter. "When adversity
knocks
>>on
>> > > your door, how do you respond? Are you a carrot, an egg
or a
>>coffee
>> > > bean?"
>> > >
>> > > Think of this: Which am I? Am I the carrot that seems
strong, but
>> > > with pain and adversity do I wilt and become soft and lose
my
>> > > strength?
>> > >
>> > > Am I the egg that starts with a malleable heart, but
changes with
>> > > the heat? Did I have a fluid spirit, but after a death, a
breakup,
>>a
>> > > financial hardship, lost of job, health problem, or some
other
>> > > trial, have I become hardened and stiff? Does my shell
look the
>> > > same, but on the inside am I bitter and tough with a stiff
spirit
>>and
>> > > hardened heart?
>> > >
>> > > Or am I like the coffee bean? The bean actually changes
the hot
>> > > water, the very circumstance that brings the pain. When
the water
>> > > gets hot, it releases the fragrance and flavor. If you are
like
>>the
>> > > bean, when things are at their worst, you get better and
change
>>the
>> > > situation around you. When the hour is the darkest and
trials are
>> > > their greatest, do you elevate yourself to another level?
How do
>>you
>> > > handle adversity? Are you a carrot, an egg or a coffee
bean?
>> > >
>> > > May you have enough happiness to make you sweet, enough
trials to
>> > > make you strong, enough sorrow to keep you human and
enough hope
>>to
>> > > make you happy.
>> > >

Potter Mania...

As i said i would, i have gone to see Potty Potter earlier...and...it was a disappointment...

Rating: 5/10

It's gotta be the director, and the casts, and the story...nth seems to work right for this sequel...geez, c'mon....it's been like the fourth episode already, wont the main casts (Daniel, Emma and Rupert) learn to be more expressive and captivating? Im just getting a lil' bored by their usual antics, hanging around each other, expressing jealousy and throwing tantrum at one another...

And i know how thick the book is, but does that mean you have to change from one scene to another in an abrupt manner? it's like kill joy when you expect to see more...perhaps showing a little action in the quidditch match wont b too much to ask for?

Also, what's with Harry? Aint he supposed to be a hellava wizard with a respectable pedigree? why is he always portrayed as a weekling, showing fear and cowardy attitude, for goodness sake, if you cant approach a gal to ask her to dance, then cast a freakin' spell...Dork...

Cliche, cliche...J.K.Rowling has a liking to always masquerade a good guy with a bad character...i wont call it a twist...we've seen too much from the previous episodes...think professor Quirrell, think professor Snape, think Sirius black...

While i enjoyed some scenes, the CGI this time around aint as impressive, the OST was OKAY, i wonder if John William was behind it, and i dunno...everything seems to be only SO SO...not exactly blockbuster material, and definitely not oscar nominee material...

Now talking bout Oscar Nominee, gosh, am i not anticipating Memoirs of a Geisha? the trailer was catchy, a total hit...though i must say that i have been disappointed times-a-plenty with impressive trailers which turned out to be a total flop...but we've gotta give Stephen Spielberg some credit in this, and of course, author Arthur Golden for his spectatular piece of work...I wish Zhang ZiYI can speak better English though....but then again, she's playing as a Geisha, now who would expect a Geisha to know English?

Anyway, it happens to be the most anticipated film of the year...let's wait and see...

Im becoming Potty...

I have no idea what's with mom earlier...she knew i am doing night shift, and she insisted i join them for the drinking session...and before i could say anything, there she brought out the wine, lay it down on the table napkin, alongside titbits and dim sum (what a combination) and wan tan and whatnot.

So i helped myself to my first glass, quite determined it shall be the first and the last for the night...then while i was engrossed with the program on telly, dad calmly poured me a second, and a third...

And as if it helps, mom later brought out the Chicken Essence for me, claiming that it will keep me up and about...yeah rite...im not so sure if it is a good idea to down a bottle of CE after three glasses of Red wine...

I understand that it is a family affair to drink on a Sunday evening, for some quality time together, and my parents always stress that drinking wine can boost your metabolism, or to put you to good sleep, paradoxically ...and we've been doing this for as long as i can remember...I s'pose that's where i got hold of my drinking habit...but really, it aint exactly bright to drink prior to an eight-hour working session...

Boss might find it amusing to have me coming in tipsy for once or twice, but the fascination will soon turn into annoyance if i have to turn in all the time with some level of alcohol lurking inside my body, effectively cutting my work load into half because im half as efficient and barely sober, that's not gonna put me inside anyone's good book, does it?

While he is concerned of my relationship problem right now, i found it disturbing when boss keeps asking if i want him to introduce some gals to me, keep asking when my off day is so that he can bring me out to the bar...apparently he has lotsa connections when it comes to eligible spinster in town...well dude, im half your age, so stop saying you know more gals my age than i do...i dun mind dating his daughters if they're gorgeous, but he rarely/never brings them out on any outing occasion.

**************

If im not too tired later tonight, i'll go for Harry Potter...wizardry is really my kinda thing, i LOVE magic...too bad is only fantasy...

Later...

Lonely, Im Mr. Lonely...

I have nobody, for my own....

Geez, lately im feeling it again...i always do whenever the festive season is around the corner...Dun get me wrong, i am in no way whatsoever despise this period of the year, in fact, ive been looking forward towards it forever...

If only, there is some1 there......
If only, i can express my love for that some1......
If only, if only we could go away somewhere together....

******

What would I give
To live where you are?
What would I pay
To stay here beside you?
What would I do to see you
Smiling at me?

Where would we walk?
Where would we run?
If we could stay all day in the sun?
Just you and me
And I could be
Part of your world

I don't know when
I don't know how
But I know something's starting right now
Watch and you'll see
Some day I'll be
Part of your world

(lyrics adapted from the little mermaid - part of your world, reprise)


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Yeah, the other day i joined the folks for a BodyJam session in FF...

I felt good...

that i am in shape (nvm the beer belly, it is still a shape)
that i am agile
that i can keep up with the movements
that i look good dancing...(hehe, keep it to urself if you beg to differ...)

I will continue to join BJ, and possibly pilates, and yoga, and steps...not BodyCombat, not BodyPump...too hectic...

When you are in SHAPE...

You have confidence
You like to go shopping
You are attractive
You can flaunt your body at the beach
You have the capacity to eat what you like
You feel sexy
You feel as if nothing matters anymore
You feel on top of the world

I know all these are rather shalow, but studies reveal that people in shape is more likely to get employed than people who are overweight, obese...Nvm if im still single being IN SHAPE, im merely too choosy, i'll get some1 one day...

So, Join a gym today...

(FYI, im not working as a membership consultant in any fitness centre, im advocating because i want you to feel good as well...)

OMG.....

im totally not myself right now....im not drunk....just tipsy....

im starting to work right now....with my head spinning....

Jo, u owe me....i drank becoz of you...

we didnt down the entire red label if it wasnt for u...

red wine....carlsberg....

and now....

work....

im dying....

feel like crying....

yeah........she just told me....that she is seeing someone now....

mayb i shd stop calling her........

mayb i shd stop asking her out.......

mayb i shd stop thinking bout the possibility....

mayb i shd jz forget bout it....

Life still carry on....

Christmas...

Yeah....im officially doing 'graveyard' shift again...

Sometimes, i feel im just being too nice...

X: Marcus, is it possible if i exchange shift with you for the next couple of weeks?
Me: Which shift are you scheduled to do?
X: I will be doing the midnight shift.
Me: ohh...may i know why you would like me to swap with you?
X: It aint convenient for me to come at midnight...you see, i do not have means of transportation...
Me: Geez...that sucks...
X: So are you cool with it?
Me: (damn dude, im not cool bout it) Oh yeah, i guess that wont be a problem...
X: That'd be great, thanks alot man...
Me: Yeah, dun mention it...(you can say that again...)

So...here i am...deprived of sleep...luckily im not hungry, otherwise im gonna get VERY cranky...Thank you Mom for that nice sandwiches from Crowne Plaza...you are the best...

Boss has been telling everyone im the 'whiner' in the office...

'It's too warm'
'There's so much to do'
'Do we get extra allowance'
'Why is this not working?'
'Why didnt you get more stuff for the fridge?'
'Who's gonna work on New Year eve?'

As for the last question, i have specifically made it clear that there will be NO WAY im coming in...i needa count down...so i was asking him who will be that scapegoat....he gave me that smirk and said: i will give present to that person who comes in, apart from the OT...

Geez...he's always doing that...but anyway, i dun think i want whatever gifts he is offering...it wont be a trip to toronto anyway (i asked if i could go since the boss is going), he said the trip is too expensive to pay for me...and that's it...

but really, i dun mind this boss of mine, he is kinda sporting, and i nv hide anything from him, not even for my intention NOT to stay long in this company, and my desire to go backpacking...He said i will needa give him three months notice before throwing in the resignation...but i know he's merely pulling my leg...im still under probation, which means i can leave within 24 h if i want to...

............

Christmas comes early this year...I saw the first Christmas tree in MPH the other day...aint that pretty? I'll hafta tell mom to set up the tree soon, i always like decorating it with ornaments...i wonder if she is gonna buy a new set this year...But the Angel will always be the same every year, standing on the tip...watching over us...protecting us...

We rarely put on the mistletoe, because we dun need one to get a peck from mom, and i dun feel comfortable if dad gives me one at my cheek...but we do have tinsels, lotsa them...it makes the house so bright...

I have yet to buy any Christmas present...i'll do it soon...

Tmr there will be a MBA fair at Westin Hotel, ive registered myself in it...i know i dun have the required two years working experience...but i needa know which Uni is offering the best course and the fees that come along with it...I need a MBA...

But i wont b surprised if i didnt show up tmr at the hotel...is my day off...

Sometimes, i feel like im more of a talker than a walker...

Truth is...i talk the talk and walk the walk...

Try me...

Headache...

I could have drunk more that i can remember yesternight, coz earlier Mel was giving me a piece of her mind for putting a deaf ear on her advice. Well, i heard her at the party, i knew she meant well, and i had brushed her off...Truth is, she was forbidding me to drink Carlsberg after seeing me downing few glasses of red wine...Apparently, it aint a good idea to mix wine with beer, as i later found out...

This morning i woke up with a splitting headache, and i mean literally, SPLITTING...i could barely open my eyes and put my feet on terra firma, the pain was so intense, it still is actually, but less severe now...The pain is like as though someone is hammering you in the brain, and then squeezing the life outta it...Yeah, i probably shoulda listen to her, she's the expert in this really, having been leading a life of debauchery yesteryears and finally got enough of it and turned over a new leaf...Geez, can u believe she used to party EVERY night when she was in Gold Coast? Now that aint some records i would like to break....

So Catherine got married yesterday...She is actually my best friend Jo's sister...i saw it...i saw this glow of happiness on her face...a glow knowing that you will be with someone who loves you, a glow knowing that you won't be alone...She met him when they were studying together in sixth grade...they were both my seniors...and they are a complete match...

He was a, hmm...someone who excels in studies (i wanted to call him a dork...but he's my friend, haha...), she wasnt so good in studies...he taught her...and voila...the spark was triggered, and the fire has not gone dim since...what a romantic story, aye? She hates to party (unlike Jo), he doesnt drink, they both like to hang just aroung each other, they visit the Zoo (does anyone still do that?), they go to the park...they...are in their own sweet world...

Jo was exceptionally pretty yesternight...well, with the hair do and make up and elaborate gown, who wouldn't...so i was helping her by being the photographer...her mom has especially assigned me to take picture of her more instead of the other guests...well, there were some high profilers in the guest list...among them Datuk Tan kong choi (dunno spelling), and few other unknown datuks...Auntie Teoh is an active member in MCA, so i would say she cant afford a cheesy wedding dinner...

As usual, the dinner started late, as it is a norm of a typical Chinese wedding dinner...in which i loathe endlessly...what's with the waiting? Can't we just start without the late-comers? and who do they think they are coming in late? Geez, the phrase better late than never does not fit in here at all...i'd rather they dun turn up at all, frankly speaking...I know when i throw a party or a banquet next time, i'd never wait for those who has RSVPed but nevertheless decide to turn up fashionably late...

I dun think i'll ever have my own wedding dinner at all...what's the take of announcing to the whole world that you are getting married? Can't we just email our friends and relatives bout it? i'd use the money for an extravagant vacation instead...just the two of us...without people yelling at the top of their voices...YAMMMMMMMMM SENGGGGG.....however, i would still get few of my close friends together for a bash...but that happens with or without a wedding announcement...:)

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Ive decided i'd go to church camp afterall...this year they are having it at Awana Kijal...i guess i needed the rest and spiritual revival as well...ive been working too hard...well, at least i think i am...

Can't wait to go off soon....

Buying Groceries...

Geez, wasnt they surprised when i walked in carrying dairies and breads and stuff? I enjoy seeing them flabbergasted like that, it doesnt happen quite often when they are in awe with the things i do, and this is one of them...

truth is, ive seldom/barely/never bought home groceries before...as i lay down DeliFrance's croissant(Le croissant pur beurre), danish and Chicken and mushroom Feuillete , missed the sultana (Le pain aux raisins), one of my favourites...i love QUICHE as well, it's a kinda pizza bread thingy that is so delicious it melts in your mouth...

I can see that Dad's proud that his son is finally fixing him supper for a change...since young, both my parents have been feedling me neverendingly, they still do, i was never hungry whenever im home, and missing breakfast is a big NONO at home. I love particularly mom's pasta and sandwiches...she used to make this mashed potato with Baguette....gosh, my mouth waters even to think bout it...and yes, croissant is her specialty as well, i like minced chicken the most for the fillings...

This morning, everyone was pulling my leg again in the office....they have nicknamed me 'kedai runcit Marcus' or literally Marcus' grocery store, jz because i brought with me cereals, biscuits, peanut butter, sausages, ice cream, bread, yoghurt, cheese, milk...among others...haha, alright, that's quite a list, but is it wrong to stock out something in the pantry so that i wont go hungry? the mamak store here sucks big time, and really..there's not alot of food around here...

Yesterday i finally got hold of Mark Twain's collection from MPH, it contains the adventure of Tom Sawyer, the adventure of Huckleberry Finn and Prince and Pauper, among others...I also bought Michael Crichton's State of Fear, one of the top ten bestseller in MPH...one glance at the top ten books and im quite surprised that i have eight of them...i guess im just a sucker for bestsellers....

Gonna attend a wedding dinner this sat...gotta save up some funds for the ang pao....been spending way too much lately....how to survive the remaining half a month? i really dunno.....haha...

Working Sunday, how much worst can it be? Oh Geez, im gonna miss OC tonight, wont i? But to dwell on the thought of the drinking session that follows after dark kinda cheer me up everytime... I need a raise, for working so hard!!

Classical

Talk about getting all retro...recently ive been very obsessed with classicals...symptoms...ive been playing Chopin's Nocturne, opus 9, no. 2, over and over again...After Chopin, i would play Beethoven's Moonlight sonata, second movement as well...one of my favourites...

The thing about second movement in classical music is that, it is often in ADAGIO mode, which means Slow, Leisurely...contrary to first and third movement, where it was written by composer for Allegro, or allegretto, literally lively, brisk, rapid...

When it comes to playing a piece in Adagio, one needs to be filled with emotions...it comes out beautifully when you are especially in a melancholy mood...which described my feelings for the past few days...Moonlight Sonata is a depressing piece, as is most of other Beethoven's work, well...i wont blame the poor man, since he could never appreciate his own music, he was deaf...

As a verbatim quote from Beethoven himself, he was known as saying :"For two years I have avoided almost all social gatherings because it is impossible for me to say to people "I am deaf". If I belonged to any other profession it would be easier, but in my professsion it is a frightful state.."

I feel as if i could relate myself to his impairment, not on the physical side, but more on the mental side...there is an emptiness in which i could never fulfill...talk bout his overture: Pathetic...that's exactly my state right now...after that piece, i was always inclined to play Fur Elise, a cheerful turn from the blue notes...and it always brighten up my day...

Apart from classical music...ive been reading classics literature as well...im currently reading Charles Dicken's classic Oliver Twist...haha, i know...but ive always liked this classic as it reminds me of how fortunate i am...Yesterday during a sharing in Cell Group, we talked about honoring our parents, one of the commandment...and it kinda make me realise that i havent been having a heart to heart talk with my parents lately...Mom has been away for a week now, doing some voluntary work for the society...helping some rural schools to set up computer rooms, teaching the kids how to use 'em, and educating 'em the IT era...

As for dad, he has been rather busy himself, having his own activities, his games and his fellowship...and due to my working nature, staggered hours, i.e...whenever he is around, i will be working, and vice versa...i really needa make an effort to bond with 'em...they are the world to me...

On another note, it is mom's bday next week...she's turning 51...it's disheartening to see 'em getting old...and to acknowledge that they cant be with us forever...well...c'est la vie...i wonder if i shd give her a treat during the Hi-Tea...she wont hear of it, i know...

So back to the books...after Oliver, im going after tom sawyer, then it will be The Broker, by John Grisham, and followed by James Patterson...im doing good...

Updates on the TV series ive downloaded...Lost- episode 5, and Smallville - Episode 6, Charmed - Season 8...Ive finished watching Survivor Palau...going for Guatemala...Latest movie: Just Like Heaven, review: 8/10, i kinda like it, but ive always liked Reese Witherspoon, so...alright, that's about my life...for now...Pathetic as it sounds...i dun care...

Tolerance....

I got to know that i have been scheduled to work this coming Sunday morning and was not happy about it. Didnt i already make known that Sunday is absolutely offlimit for me? The commandment says that we should make the seventh day as Sabbath day...no one should work on this day, and we (Christian) should all go to the Church for a day of fellowship and to dwell on God's words...

I approached this co-worker of mine, he's a newbie, and man, his attitude sucks big time...So i was asking if he could take over my sunday morning shift from me while i replace his shift in the afternoon...Guess what, he said he cant b sure, as he would LOVE to sleep till late on a Sunday morning...well, apparently, he claimed that he needs to club till late at night on Sat....Duh....look at yourself, you don't even look cool enough to go clubbing....do you think everyone is eligible for the clubbing scene? Please dun b an eye sore having around town with that attire of yours....ugh...

Well, as much i would love to give my two cents worth on his dressing right in front of him...i kept it to myself...the boss cant afford to lose anyone right now when he is desperately hiring for more staff...so i maintained my composure and asked for his consideration....he replied that he will THINK ABOUT it....

Feeling a little pissed and disoriented...i mean, i shouldnt b angry with him, he has no obligation whatsoever to swap his shift with mine....but man...What's the matter with him? So i prayed and ask for God's intervention...worst come to worst, i will just not show up on Sunday, although that would b bad ethic, but c'mon....im at Hobson's choice...I'm singing on stage this Sun...

When the boss came in later, i approached him and told him straight off that i WONT b coming in this Sun, pls find a replacement for me...he seemed to be sympathetic, and said he will see to it...My boss knows ive been pulling my weight for the company since its launch last month...im glad he told me that and i do appreciate an acknowledgement when i get one...is not that i want people to give me credits for whatever ive done...but aint is just sweet when someone put in a word of compliment for you?

But i digress...

Later i plan to get my long hair shorted...will go back to Peek-A-Boo, where ive frequent over the past three years...im thinking of changing my hairstyle altogether, but dunno if im bold enough to venture into Seth's zone of creativity...he always have this funky ideas that make one stands out...i dun wanna look flamblyant, nor would i wanna look dull....so i guess i'll just choose something in between...

Ive gone back to my gym routine, following the regime that ive learned from my trainer...i dunno if ive seen improvement in myself...im definitely toner than before...but im still skinny...i take pride in my chest, but loathe the tummy that i have...is gonna take more than jz sit-ups to trim it down...but ive figured out few crunches that i can work on...beer gut is absolutely disgusting...

Im so restless....is Christmas soon..........let's embrace the spirit and be Merry.....

A day of reunion

So i woke up early morning on Saturday, getting all dressed up - well, not so dressed up...coz i decided that i would merely put on a polo-T and jeans and i was good to go...As it happened, i was bombarded with questions and awkward stares from my buddies when i met them at pyramid for a day of reunion...as EXPECTED...

In fact, i wouldnt blame them for being so surprised, ive never, NEVER, once wore a polo T when i hangout with 'em during the five varsity years...it simply caught them off guard to see me toning down my attire...where's the flamboyant Marcus? where's the funky T-shirts with funky words, or the vintage inspired with paints all over, or the one with tears and bleached like it was done accidentally?

Honestly, since i started working, i thought it was time to grow up, no more getting dressed up in a teenager-inclined-attire and imply to the whole world that i have nothing better to do than to loiter on the street or to get drunk in a bar...Yeah, it's about time to change the whole image to one who is seemingly established and to look sorta manly, kinda macho-man wannabe...I just wouldnt take it if people start telling me that i have a malfunction wardrobe, or a poor sense of taste, which is so contrary to my nature...

The transition should take place gradually, while i would still continue shopping at Topshop, Esprit, and Guess, i would venture into Zara, Raoul, Philosophy and the like...for a more sophisticated look, assumingly...Well, one good thing about my attire that day, Chloe later pointed out, is that she likes the DKNY sneaker i was wearing...well, not too bad afterall, a word of complinent is all i needed...Note to self: No more polos when i hangout with this gang again...

We had a fine time at redbox, well, at least i had, since i havent sung in Karaoke for like two weeks already...haha, that seemed like a long time really, for i like learning new songs there...We adjourned to Starbucks later for some catching up...apparently everyone is doing so well with their jobs, describing every details and every corner of what they are currently involved in, the projects, the gossips, the politics and all...

I always felt like an outcast whenever im with them, coz im the only fella doing non-engineering related work...well, likewise for Serious, but he's gonna be a politician one of these days, that sounds like something, rite? it's sad to tell them my plan to go backpacking, coz they would nv encourage me...advising me to go later when i had my career all stable and going somewhere...i jz couldnt wait...deep inside me, i know that when i come back from my trip, no one would consider hiring me, not after a year or two not working, but instead walking on some other part of the world...the knowledge would be gone, and my skills worthless...if that happens, i figure...i would just go and study MBA and see if i'll be going somewhere...

We played a game of bowling next, before tucking into Sushi and Sushi King...the highlight of the day was when i bought myself some Shifts and a sweater from Esprit...I jz love to shop, dun i? Of coz, to see the others again after so many months is heart-warming...at one point, i was even considering working in Penang to be with them...They have all offered to send my resume to their superiors...but then again, the timing is not right...i cant commit myself to any jobs right now...i needa go somewhere FIRST...

i hope my adamant attitude wont backfire and come back to haunt me forever...i know my parents wont mind, they will support me for whatever decisions i make...life is short, and i always tell people that i adopt the philosophy from Nike...

Just Do It...

i simply luv it...

Working weekends...

And so it happened that i went to see Guy Sebastian in action on Sunday...it was a good worship altogether, although i was a little taken aback when he showed up without his signature hair - Overpermed-explosion-like hair style...

Along with his brother Ollie Sebastian and worship leader Anna Button, and the team from his home church Paradise Community Church, Adelaide, they put up quite a spectacular show featuring songs composed by none other than his brother himself...

I was interested when the pastor extended his invitation for us to attend the annually conference, namely 'Influence' at his church in Adelaide...After my visit to Hillsongs Church, Sydney, i have been utterly impressed by the aussie's with the worship they come out with...I would definitely like to visit Australia again, and i plan to do so after my trip to NZ...apparently it's cheaper to fly from NZ to Aus...so, we'll see about that...

Due to insufficient sleep yesterday, i was quite tired during the concert and dozed off a couple of times when the pastor was sharing...and it was pretty warm inside the hall, triggering me to perspire...but all in all, they're all good, and we had a great time at GT...

But i digress...

Earlier while working, PAMELA GILDEY (fyi, she's a celebrity, she stars in CSI)called...she is actually one of the featured celebrity player in our games...and can u believe it, i picked up that call!! so she was telling me that she won a game playing yesterday and that she has not received her money...i talked to her for a while (30 minutes) and promised her i will credit the money into her account...geez, how cool was that? she's a very courteous woman who speaks humbly without any air at all...Needless to say, she has made my day...i dun mind working their time if i can get my chance talking to the celebs...Other featured celebrities include James Wood, Dennis Quiad, Matt Damon...among others...

Im still getting used to this star-studded games in which im supporting...i have the ability to give real money (US dollar) to players, issue them tickets and even chat with them in the lobby...This is not such a boring job after all...

Maybe i will stick around for a while...

Look forward to seeing other people celebrating deepavali and Raya...coz the city will be DESERTED...and i can enjoy myself shopping these few days...in peace...

Breaking NEWS.....FCUK is having sales up to 70%...go grab it, people...and dun spread the news around...we dun wanna bump into some1 from the street wearing the sames jeans and T-shirt rite? Dun wanna make the brand cheap...

With that said...Happy Halloween everybody...

Treats or Tricks? You tell me....

puffy eyes...

Lately, people have been asking me if i have slept well, coz my eyes look swollen, and what's suppose to be the white area is no longer white in colour, i wouldnt be bothered about the black area though, since it changes colour all the time...lol...from green to turquoise to light blue to hazel to grey...constantly evolving into something new...

and so i was somewhat concerned, it just wont do walking around broad daylight looking like a zombie from residence evil...gosh, i hope i can get back to regular shift soon, this midnight thingy is taking its toll on me...it jz aint worth it...

I am pissed...i had to cancel a drinking session today so that i can rest at home before i go to work at 12am...i thought it was necessary to rejuvenate before i wear myself out...i can barely hold on anymore...i am weary...i wanna watch movies...i wanna drink some mai tai...i need time out....badly...

This morning i invited Edward over to O'brien's for breakfast, i ordered a BLT sandwich while he had his club sandwich...I always like breakfasting at O'brien's coz they serve really wholesome and hearty sandwiches, not unlike Oliver's...i like particularly edward's club, which is served of coz with the essentials (BLT namely bacon, lettuce and tomato), along with ham and cheddar...absolutely scrumptious...

Before O'brien was opened at the Curve, i frequent Coffee bean's breakfast, sometimes Delifrance, and totally avoid Mcdonald's breakfast altogether...which serve horrendous coffee and 'cheesy' scrambled eggs...i like particularly the salmon scrambled egg at CB, and the idea of free-flowing coffee...yeah, im a coffee person, that explains why i adore Bailey's, Kahlua and Amarula...

Nothing comes better than to have a cup of ice-blended caramel, grande, and a set of jigsaw puzzles...i think im gonna get one set this weekend, just to add to my collection of jigsaws...but i wont get it from Jigsaw Puzzle World though, it's too expensive, and im currently saving my travelling fees...perhaps i will try getting one at one of the bookstores...

geez...i dun look forward to working tomorrow night at all...can you imagine getting off work at 8am and go straight to church like devil from hell? Im sure, however...that God will give me the strength i need to get to His temple...

I really need a new job...

random thoughts...

It's almost 3...in the wee hours...

Yeah, guess what...im still up and about...working...

this is taking a toll on me, my routines are all screwed up, and im losing contact with everyone i know...

This morning i was cycling in the gym...and incredibly, i dozed off...

really, i dunno if this is right...coz it sure doesnt seem like one...

On the contrary, boss is being very caring...he bought in a toaster and a microwave oven...and a refrigerator is coming in as well...Apparently he thinks that we can start making our breakfast and snacks and whatnot in the office...so that we dun hafta take time off to search for food...

Im munching on my pringles right now...perhaps i should bring in something healthier like cereals or oat bars or something...cant put my health in jeopardy...

Looking forward to go to the fun fair this saturday at 1-U...after reading 'the five people you meet in heaven' by Mitch Albom, i always have a craving for fairs...When i was younger, i used to pester my mom to bring my brother and i to get our hands on the hoops, the ferris wheel, and of coz, the carousel...what fond memories then...bringing home stuffed toys, stationery, junks...

Plan to go to Borders to get hold of some books sooner than later...

I luv reading...

thoughtless...

This morning, i woke up to find the entire house empty...my effort to locate my family members prove futile...no one was anywhere to be found! I looked at the clock and it read 10:00...

then i know, it's Monday morning, brother has gone to college, and my parents should be in town...The question is, why am i home-bound on a Monday morning?

Well, as of today, i am put on a midnight shift AKA graveyard shift from 12am to 8am...the very thought of it gives me the shiver...seriously, who would stay awake at 12 midnight? hmm, let's not think of it as the time to party, k?

Personally, i really have no problem working midnight shift, truth is, i HAVE NOT endeavour it before...so i guess it's good for a change....the only thing that is holding me back is...well...there shall be less drinking session while i work on this shift...

Alright, as much as i love drinking, im not going to work at 12am in a tipsy state...really, give me more credit than that...although i would say i can still manage a couple of pint of beer and maintain sober...cant lose touch with Leanne just because of work, rite?

On the bright side, i would only be on this shift for a fortnight, in which time will be totally lopsided, working when everyone else's asleep...

Dad has bought me lotsa 'chicken essence' so that i can fight off the sleepiness...like it helps...anyway, i dun think my parents are happy of me working staggered hours...if ive gotta do this more often, i think they will ask me to quit the job...

Thing is, i find that the time in a day has kinda expanded...i was up the whole day watching Survivor X: Palau, and catching up on some CSIs, i read my book and surf the net out of boredom...i even practised the PIANO!!

Do excuse the exclamation, but i havent touched the piano for ages...there was simply no time for it...and the poor thing has stood there like an ancient relic, waiting to be discovered, full of hopes everytime i walked past without so much of a glance...

Yeah, i spend less time at home when im working regular hours...well, i left home at 830 in the morning, and after work, i often stayed back for happy hour, or went to a movie with friends, or bring some folks to savour at a few new diners, or even gym...

talking bout gym, i reckon i will visit it less now that im put on shifts...i cant possibly be hitting the threadmill after work, can i? or before, for that matter...On the other hand, i would be beating the crowds if i work out in the morning AFTER work...geez...that's a very comforting thought indeed...and GOSH, i would be beating the TRAFFIC...im sure some of you would envy me for that....wahahahahaha......

Now that we are leaning more to the pros of working staggered hours, i can save up a great deal of money too...here's the logic...

1. More salary
2. Less Entertainment (Less drinking, movies...etc)
3. Dining at home (Breakfast, Lunch and Dinner)
4. Less petrol consumption (Smooth traffic)


Hmm, come to think of it, it's beneficial afterall...

but really, let's see if i can take it...we shall find out later...when u guys are tucking in... :(

Tell me bout having life...

in need of solitude...

Lately, ive been hanging out alot with my ex-colleagues, until the extent that i hardly have time for my best friends and my alma mater mates...

As a start, they no longer buy me when i told them i will visit 'em in penang 'one of these days', and they have given up hope in including me in any of the activities that they have planned...

i really cant help it for not being such a sport as ive always had...truth is, entertainment is part of working life...i wont deny that i do enjoy a drink or two, or more after work everyday, but really, i needa spend more time in getting back in touch with my friends...

So last weekend, after a drinking session with Leanne and folks, i kinda feel good coz we were getting real intimate during the session...she paid the bill which amounted to 500+ and i feel terribly upset by it...well, this coming weekend would be my turn to buy the drinks...so it makes us even...

Ive no longer have any problems with the people in my current office now, ive decided that im not gonna allow anyone to make my life miserable, it jz aint worth it...so instead of getting annoyed with the few who is more often cocky than anything, i barely pay them any attention at all...i found this work generally well for me and ive felt more sober ever since...

I shall be turning up for an interview tmr at CSA, applying for the position of Network Engineer....if it is God's will, let's hope i get it...nth is holding back in this current company of mine anyway...

It's about time to to visit borders to get a few books....im finishing on Memoirs of a Geisha and Angels and Demons....currently chasing after Lost and Amazing Race and Survivor and desperate housewives on TV...

i luv my life...


count down to NZ trip...3 mths...:)

is a fine day....

This morning, i had to sat for this test that was prepared by my trainer...looking back, i havent at all been pulling my weight throughout the entire training, well, i wasnt even TRYING...

reason: i was in a bad term with my trainer, i jz want him to know im not in the least interested in what he has to teach...

thing is, that canadian hasnt been treating everyone well...he always have that smirk on his face, always telling people off with his sarastic remarks, always talk in a condescending tone...all in all, ive had enough of him, so i thought i should declare a war for the welfare of the other stuff here...

the Consequence: i was summoned into the boss' office couple of days back...he was being very kind though...asking me what's it that happened between me and the canadian...i told him i was being picked on, and i wasnt gonna treat him with respect if he cudnt b bothered to do the same...he asked that i bear with him for a couple of weeks more before he is being sent back, saying that i shd learn as much as i can and take advantage of his knowledge that he has to offer...

hmm, following the conversation, i think the trainer has somehow figured that he's being a pain to everyone, and resolved to work on his attitude...well, maybe jz a lil'...

Lately, i can feel that everyone is on the verge of calling it quit, which of coz includes me as well...this morning, i get to know that a colleague has put in his resignation...

it wont b long that i will follow suit...not unless the boss show a lil' more appreciation to me...but i guess i will somehow know it later when they reveal the results for the test that ive taken...

Well, things aside, im gonna drink with Leanne, and possibly Sam later this evening...mayb i'll bring my colleague along too...Drinking always help when situation is tensed...

:)


I hope Leanne will bring Natasha again, u know, the 1st runner up for Ms. Malaysia...coz i simply adore her....

BAD BAD BAD....

well, as it turned out...im feeling totally screwed up now....


Couple of hours ago...

Some1 was so kind that they smashed my car's side window...

They were so desperate that they took away everything that i treasured...

I hate 'em...

But Lord says...

Forgiveness...


Well, may they hav a better life now that they are at least RM 1300 richer...


Oh Lord....why didnt they take away the bible in my car?

Dun u want 'em to b saved?

U hav Your own timing...


May Your will b done then...


Amen....

So it happened that my trainer found out that i wasnt paying attention while he was lecturing and im kinda in his 'black book' now....

'Marcus, are you following us?'
'Marcus, did you manage to get it?'
'Marcus, do you where we are at?'

As a matter of fact, im not exactly being a diligent student and have been playing online poker all the time he was teaching...

Well, i dun really bother being in anyone's good book...

I am in my own sweet world...

Parlez vous Francais

today we have a trainer from Canada who is here to train us on products and customer service skills...we'll hafta bear with him for six weeks or more during which he'll see to us getting handson experience and teaching us to play the games...

Well, i cant believe im doing someting in which i learn to play online games as a job, how cool is that? I think im gonna stick around for a while in this company and see what he has to offer in terms of quality training...

I dun find it hard to understand his canadian english and i think it is a good opportunity to polish up my conversation skills...or mayb even my french...hehe...

Till then, Au revoir...


Avec amour,
Marc.

Pretending to be happy...

People often tell me how much they resent Monday, how gray the sky is, and how blue their feelings are...

I beg to differ...

Monday has always been the day when i can see my lovely colleagues again...
Monday is the day to share the weekend excitement...
Monday is the day to go out for a nice luncheon with friends...
Monday is the day to start working out again after much eating during the weekend...
Monday, contrary to Friday, is the day when u can plan for all kinds of activities for the coming weekend...

I nv drink on a Monday evening...
I nv despair on a Monday night...
I always look forward to spending Monday night at home...

I luv Monday...

After generations of constantly been loathed by people of all ages, infants and kids apart...I say we give MONDAY a BREAK!!

In that, I stongly suggest that we make Monday a holiday, much like Sunday...

Let Monday be a day to rest after all the hangouts on Sunday...
Let Monday a day to rejunevate our strength and prepare for work on Tuesday...
Let Monday be a day that people will look forward to...
Let Monday be as lovable as Sunday...

Gosh, after much appreciation of Monday, i cant for the day to end...Coz....

I love Tuesday more than Monday...

Sorry, pal...I will love you more when my off-days fall on you...it will come...

TGIF

Hooray, im thrilled...nothing can beat the excitement of having a drink afterwork....

On the other hand, it has been a rather slow week, nothing has evolved, and nothing has stopped the earth from evolving...boring...

Looking forward to a family reunion this weekend to celebrate MidAutumn...i dun know why we bother, since we havent any seasons here...still, there will be wine and liquor around....so let the party begins....


Luv Y'all...

Bar hopping...

Yeah, it's insane, ive barely joined this company for less than a week, and the folks kinda solicit, drag me out to hav a couple of mugs of beer...

Alright, not that im not excited to chillout with my new colleagues, not that i hate the idea that the company is deprived of female staffs, not that i dun look forward to jz some drinks....but, the idea of a beer gut kinda turn me off...entirely...

Lately, while i was still with SCB ( Standard Chartered Bank), we chillout for happy hour at least twice a week, normally on a tuesday and a Friday...i dun exactly know these two particular days were prefered, but i suspect it has gotta do with the art of 'balancing'...

We normally wouldnt drink more than one jug each, which was the standard as set by my ex-colleague, and yeah, she can really drink, but last friday we kinda got outta control...if memory serves me correctly, i think we had like 10 jugs to b shared among the five of us...alright, it was double the dosage of the benchmark we had set...

And because it was Leanne's bday, the bar manager decided that she will give us a jug of sex-on-the-beach on the house...and so, along with the mixture of beers and cocktails, and some chips and nachos, the blend didnt go down well my belly...

Instead, it kinda went back up...and according to my friends, yeah, i PUKED...AT THE BAR...

Now how embarrassing can that be? after been visiting steadfastly to bar FLAM for the past couple of months, i had decided that im gonna make BF my regular hangouts, at least for HH...coz i aint exactly a fan of Bangsar....skip the racial issue, skip the parking bay deprived issue, skip the not-so-happening issue...im jz not fond of the place...

Albeit all that, everything's changed...due to the fact that im working at phileo damansara, and previously at TTDI, and also becoz my hangout buddies, Leanne and Rex, they are staying in Mt.Kiara and Bangsar, respectively, we hav sorta mark BF as our territory...

i dunno, really...after the puking incident in which i cud hardly recall...i feel ashame going back there...so perhaps we're gonna look for another hangout afterall...

Coming back here, yesterday after work, my colleagues, Jeffrey, Limmy, Alvin and myself, we went to drink at this bar near our workplace, by the name of Matrix...dun b deceived by that catchy-sounding name, the place, as it turned out, aint promising...and by that, i mean nothing is ever gonna happen, no matter how long we would stay there....and by that, i really mean, THERE AINT NO CHICKS...period.

So, after two jugs of tiger, we adjourned to go to Absolute@bangsar...we ordered another two jugs, tiger again....and then i suggested nachos...God bless me, it was the worst nachos ive ever taken in my entire life...the cheese was plain, there was no condiments like Sour Cream and guatemala sause, jz some tomato salsa...

Needless to say, i told the folks that we aint going back there again, though the beers are really cheap, only 20 per jug...we later walked down the road to Castle, another joint in which the others frequent...they knew the manager there, and he recommended this tachos to us, it was sumptious! we thought it would b complimentary, but apparently the manager didnt see it as necessary...

So, we paid the bills, rather tipsy after perhaps more than a jug each...i missed my favourite TV show, Desperate Housewives...i missed the Gym...i missed dinner with my parents...jz so that i can hangout with the folks...

Well, i would say it was worth it...

Look forward to the next HH...till then, let's hold our guts together...

Moving on...

It must have been ages, or light years since i last written anything here...Today i was reading the newspaper and i came across these singaporean bloggers who are persecuted for deliberately commenting on racial issues and hence created a 'disruption' among racial unity...my ass...

It didnt bother me for a while of what i could or could not write in my blog...it didnt create a vigilant awareness that i might end up behind bars for what i say here...it didnt for one moment struck me that anyone would bother to read my blog at all...that explains it...

Looking back, i quit blogging after the ShangHai trip, i didnt even write on my experience to Cambodia, in which i have so much to tell...i must have gone all weary...my friends were asking me: What happened to you? Why havent u blogged? Are u still in Malaysia?

Yes, im still in freakin Malaysia, and why wont i blog if i were abroad? for more so the reason i would write every single day if im anywhere else than here...everyone knows im dying to get outta here...

Things didnt quite work out the way ive planned it...Bro has gone back to Australia, without me...which wasnt the initial plan at all...Didnt i say i was gonna follow him back there?

Apparently he welcomes me open arms to join him in queensland, but he was asking me, will i be able to bear living in the wild? With animals around you? cold wind slapping on my face?

Im still contemplating...time is ticking away...im getting older...i still wanna go backpacking, remember? that's underway too...ive decided i would go NZ...yeah, of all places that i say i would b going...how'bout europe, and of coz, States?

hmm...im kinda putting the studying plan on hold, after finding out that it cost 25k USD to get my MBA, and it is less than half the tuition fees if i were a resident...so, It aint too late to study when i get my PR rite?

Ppl are mocking me...they say im living in my own fantasy world...why would they give u a PR, they say...Could i be bothered of their sceptic remarks? NO...i knew i will get it, it's jz a matter of time...we'll see....

I hereby announce that I WILL BECOME A US RESIDENT, by hook or by crook...no point telling me i cant go, coz IM GOING>>>>>>leaving this freakin place behind...

Yes, im hating malaysia more each day, i jz dun know why....it's the people, it's the weather, it's the government...

So while waiting to go to US, i'll go travelling for a while, once ive gotten the travelling documents ready...the visa, the health cert, the police delinquency cert...

Coming back to reality, im currently working at a call centre, dun ask which company, coz u wont wanna know...no point staying at home and rot to death...at least im earning money to spend on my clothes and expensive food...been drinking a hell lot lately, thanks to the influence of my colleagues...or was i the one who influenced them? i really cant recall...

Geez, i cant believe they are paying me money to play games here...(told u not to ask bout the company...)...i might jz reveal a lil'...it is a gaming business, and yes, im literally paid to play games...on a daily basis...

well, that's all for today, shall blog extensively from today onwards...i hope...till i write to u again in a foreign land...



Another hour to go for Happy Hours.....



p/s: Malaysia is really the worst place ever...

Live it, luv it, Shang Hai

Cowabanga, IM BACK!!

Gosh, it has been ages since i last posted any updates here, have i really been that busy? Indeed i have....and it's gonna take days to relate everything that's happened...

First and foremost...Shang Hai...

If i ever had sounded prejudice toward the nation of China, my sarcastic remarks for the people and my ignorant knowledge of the land, i pray to God that it will be forgiven, coz Shang Hai is truly one awesome place, KL has a long way to go if comparison were to be made...

Albeit im pretty sure one good reason im liking SH is the weather factor, but there's more than meet the eyes, or rather, the sensation on our bodies...

Without a doubt, SH is definitely a vibrant and colourful city, there is so much to see and experience, I wouldn’t mention about the food though, for some reason or other, my view toward Chinese food still remains pretty much the same, not appealing, appetizing at all. Anyhow, talking about food, we have tasted some nice and also awful food while we were there. On the first night, our Chinese guide cum friend cum lil’ brother, by the name of Sean, he has brought us to this ‘hot pot’ or ‘hua guo’ restaurant near our motel. The hot pot resembles our version of steamboat and we have ordered the ‘ma lat’ soup which literally means ‘Hot till it numbs’. What we had that night was basically and solely mutton, thinly sliced and rolled up, arranged in a pyramid shape. The meat was so good, so fragrant and so tender that we ordered a second and a third round. Oh yeah, another highlight is the cheap beer that we had, it only cost RMB 1, or equivalently 50 cents our money, can you believe it? If memory serves me correctly, we had like 15 bottles altogether to be shared only among the guys, that would be seven of us. Sean appeared invincible when he effortlessly whacked down the first few bottles, but later on appeared tipsy like the others….I was the champ…J.. It was hilarious seeing FZ(fei zai) and KT ballooning red, they avoided the beer ever since…haha…

The trip was a real blessing, and it has been FUN throughout. Anyone who commented that China is for old folks must be out of his mind, well, not SH anyway. We have been blessed with two young local and national guides, by a mere age of 22. Irene was our national guide, her obligation was to ‘shepherd’ us from KL to Singapore to ShangHai, and then Sean, on the other hand, would be our guide in China. Both our guides have been awesome, I must say I enjoy their company very much and I can confirm that the trip wont be much as fun without them, they are a real sport! The friendship that all of us built up from the first day were apparent, almost inseparable, and due to that, haha, I say we were more privileged then the other members in the group, since we have extra outings at night, not scheduled in the itinerary and also more information of the country.

The tour group consisted of 34 of us, which can be separated into three major team, the first majority team is the Christian team ( in which I later happily found out that we came from the same church), the second team is the Mok’s family, and last but not least, the nine of us would make up the students team AKA the Noisy lots…Hmm hold on, there were another married couple, Brian and Kelly, which happen to be Denise’s neighbours…and Irene’s parents as well…along with another dude, who would follow us incessantly wherever we go, and we were kinda okay with it, since he had got no friends…I speculated that he had a crush with Daryl, since that dude was always tagging along behind him, somehow or rather, even to the loo! LOL….Daryl was not happy with the speculation, chillout pal, jz another lame joke of mine…But I could be right, u know…:p

In some way, I am adamant that God has put this whole team together, gosh, how excited I was when I found out that the Christian group actually attend GT church…at the same time, I was a little taken back, thinking that there shouldn’t be anymore nonsense from me, since I am bound to meet them again in church…so I have to constantly reminding my members to keep it down and scale down the craps that we are so accustomed to have…without any qualms we were definitely the most noisy group in the entire team…I am not sure if we did manage to cheer up the spirit with our constant laughter, chit chats and Hanging-halfway-in-the-air songs during the bus ride, but I just knew that we never stopped producing noise throughout…All of us had occupied the back seat in the coach, forming a gap with the rest of the group, so as not to disturb them as much, but that effort is futile of course…

For me, it meant especially a lot with this specific arrangement simply due to the fact that my non-Christian friends were being exposed to the gospel through the other members. They were being told of testimony and life changing experience and of Christ, in which I have almost given up hope in telling after all these years of inviting them to CF, or to special events in Church, or just merely my testimony. They are not anti-Christ, but at the same time they would not accept Him as their personal savior…

The fact that I traveled to China with my close friends also made the trip very memorable, maybe it’s not so much about the place, albeit I cant deny that SH is really a breathtaking and fantastic place, but ultimately, it is more to the company, we all appreciated the moment we spent together and valued it, and have made an oath during the toast we had in every single meal that we will always stay in touch after the trip…

It will be neverending to describe the entire trip here, but I will try to note down the essential particulars, or maybe upload some pictures in the future, so that I can always keep this memory alive through this blog, to be reminisced and rejoice when im enjoying solitude in a sleepless night….I really love these ppl, they have been there since freshman year, going on to sophomore year, and then we were closest during junior and senior years…SH is our first trip abroad together, and we promised each other that it will not be the last…

Our Journey began on a blissful morning couple of days after the last paper (for some of us), and everyone was in cloud nine…We, as usual, were quick to assign nicknames to other folks….and of coz, to ourselves too…haha…over the years, I dunno under whose influence, there are these accumulation of abbreviation, most often a sarcastic kinda nickname rather than a kidding one…For instance, we have XZB (xia zhong ben), SGB ( sai gai pui), TDZHT (we named it to a guy after his endless effort in approaching denise with the lamest excuse or starting a lame small talk with her), MP (mang peng), TBY( tong poh yook), to name just a few…of coz, our gals have named themselves something more glamourous, like Zena, Omega, ABT…Apart from that, our guides have their Chinese nick name, courtesy of me…I thought it was pretty appropriate considering we were traveling in China…Ke li si ding na (Christina) served as our host in Wu Xi, Zuo Zhi (George) in Hang Zhou, Hai Lun (Helen) in Su Zhou, Jie Ke (Jack) in Nan Jing, last but not least, Siao Yu (little fish) in Shang Hai…

It was while we were gathering to check in that we decided that the rest of the members in the tour group should be categorized as LB(lou beng), despite there are younger members as well, like 24(er shi si sui)…haha…then as days went by, we have Tik Tik, Karatai Lee, Serious ( pronounced Sir-Rai-Yus), among others…We took on a great flight by SIA with excellent food, I had like five baileys on our trip from Singapore to SH, and was kinda pissed when I cant consume any during the journey back as Auntie Florence was seating beside me…We arrived in SH feeling on top of the world coz the weather was heavenly…I had often complained to my gang back in cyber that we were living in Hell, and I guess they finally agree with me upon breathing the cool, breezy SH air…We had the opportunity to ride on the fastest train on earth, the Maglite…it is basically a german technology Magnet train that made use of the electromagnetic theory, I shall spare you the operating details, though I am very familiar with it after seeing it on Discovery Chanel…J …the magnificent train achieved a maximum speed of 431 km/h and we could really feel the speed, it was AWESOME….!!

Our trip brought us from SH to Wu Xi to Su Zhou to Hang Zhou to Nan Jing and back to SH…personally, I enjoyed SH and HZ the best, and I must say the weather factor contributes to my judgment…I am sure I would enjoy Malaysia as much if the temperature is below 20 with chilling wind blowing constantly, instead of the still, mushy, contaminated air we have here…The traffic in SH is as bad as in KL, but then who cares? The buildings are magnificent, the multi-tiered highways are impressive, the people there have pink, rosy cheek…but I still dun like their loud-voice, spitting, and ill-hygiene attitude…I s’pose the nation’s development is way ahead of their mentality…

Sean, on the contrary, had not demonstrated the typical chinaman attitude, he can converse English relatively well, and quite sporting too, though we weren’t happy with his constant FFKing us…but then again, he was merely a guide of ours, he has no obligation over the promises he made anyway…Irene, a very sporting gal, has brought us to the discotechque while we were in HangZhou, and we got to experience the nightclubs there, with a vibrator in the middle of the dance floor…I couldn’t believe it when all our gals joined her on the dancing table, shaking their hips frantically with the dance bit, and portraying seducing movement…ALL HELL GONE LOOSE that night….well, we really have to thank our Choreographer, FZ, for coming out with all that creative dance movement, something the mixture of tik tik, check it out, and stupid snake gesture copied from their favourite film, Kung Fu Hustle…we drank moderately, merely two dozens of beer, and then headed to the hotel, to return the next day to the same location, but this time we voted for the lake instead…We had supper in this elegant Italian restaurant in which the folks pestered me into singing alongside the singers there…and guess what, the song was Titanic…how really embarrassing….after that, we laid down by the serene lake, whereby someone had drowned only the day b4…the atmosphere was eerie, with chilly wind and dim street light…but we enjoyed it very much….yeah, we are freaks…

So what is memorable of this China trip? I would say the Shopping! Though I didn’t do any hardcore shopping there, but the stuffs are really cheap! Well, that is if you’ve got hold of the art of bargaining…the gals did very well, calling a first offer for a 70% decrement from the initial starting price, and they managed to pull it through all the time…another one among us who did equally well is, surprisingly, a male who was never enthusiast with shopping, Fei Zai…Gosh, that dude has been spending like an open tap since the first day…let me see, he bought a stamp, few drawings, lotsa books, VCDs, over-priced tea cup…and goodness know what…for myself, I bought some cheap souvenirs, some imitation products (out of my norm) which includes Rip Curl T-shirt and CK briefs, a potentially fake Fei Chui (Jade), so-called ‘real’ pearls, and some not-so-tasty sweets…It was inevitable that the trip consisted of far too much factory visiting for comfort…we were brought to the Zi Sha Pot factory, silk factory, Long Jing Tea plantation, chrysanthemum tea, pearl, Jade, etc…

Among all, I miss the spring weather the most, the temperature was just nice, luke warm, if you will…chilly with some warmth from the sun, absolutely gorgeous…I wouldn’t love the place as much if it were Summer, for our information, it should be warmer that what we are having here, less humid, possibly…The weather in Shang Hai reminded me of Sydney, but they are two different cities altogether, although I would like to say my preference would skew toward Sydney, predictably typical of my nature, but to be honest, I wouldn’t mind staying in SH at all, I think…if only the shanghainese lass would be a little bit gentler and adorable…we have seen too many dun-mess-with-me girls in SH, trust me, they would lay a hand on you if things dun go too well to their liking…Hun Dan (bastard) would be fired against you, and dun even think of fighting back, we all know too well how Chinese opera got its name from…ultra high frequency shrieking-alike voice…you will never come close to their pitch…best solution, get a step back and SHADDAP…

I would like to go on forever about this awesome city, the many river cruises, the pearl tower, the temples (im still a Christian), the buildings, the scenery…but I will not get enough of it, ever…one thing for sure, this wont be my last trip to China…Shang Hai, you haven’t seen the last of me, we’ll bound to meet again, I s’pose 2008’s Olympic in Bei Jing wont be too far to look forward to….